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Entries for November, 2007

November 3rd, 2007


POSTED AT 11:29 PM

For the last semester of my college life:

 

SCHEDULE:

 

MWF 10:30 - Spanish 2

MWF 1:30 - Philo 104

M 3-6 - Thesis

 

TTH 4:30 - Th141

TTH 6 - Economics

 

last 15 units.

 

 

SHET nakaka emo. howell. 



November 3rd, 2007

homeless
POSTED AT 11:51 PM

I've talked about this so many times before. And yet again I'm reminded of why I didn't stay here for more than 2 days in the past 3, almost 4 years.

 

I HATE IT HERE. Tacloban is the middle of nowhere. A depressed area in a third world country. Sure, I've friends here. Okay, there's this house, the business, comfortable life with household help, blahblahblah.

 

But then, yes, I've friends but we hardly have anything to do except drink and smoke.

The house is empty. My dad stays here like 2 days in a week on average, thazzit. I can't find any of our old stuff anymore - my old jewelry box, the two old nokia 3210s and the 6110 that I left in my drawer, my high school diary. I can't really blame anyone cause everyone just goes in and out of my room. My dad made a sort of store room out of it - when mom moved out and lola died, he had all the stuff dumped in there so he could turn their rooms into offices.

The business, is, well, stressful, especially since it means spending time with my dad. 

And not having to move is making me fatter than I already am. Besides, I'm sick of the maids and the drivers making chismis about each other and trying to suck up - I KNOW WHAT THEY DO WHEN WE'RE NOT AROUND. tsss.

 

 

In Cebu, it's pretty cramped and uncomfortable in my mom's one-bedroom condo. But at least  I'm with my mom and my kuya. Pero kahit pa. Ang sikip and ang gulo. It's too tight already, what with the four of us in such a tiny space.

 

I guess for now "home" is in Loyola Heights Condo. In Quezon city. In NCR. In  Ateneo. Where my friends, roommate, ex-dormmates, blockmates, orgmates, teammates, and the people I totally care about are.

 

 

But then... what happens next year?  

 Bahala na?



November 5th, 2007


POSTED AT 09:21 AM

School Year Sem Course Subject Code Course Title Units Final Grade
2007-2008 1 AB EC DS 135.2 SPECIAL TOPICS IN DEVELOPMENT MANAGEMENT: SOCIAL ENTREPRENEURSHIP 3 B+
2007-2008 1 AB EC EC 185.48 SPECIAL TOPICS IN ECONOMICS: MODERN CHINESE ECONOMY 3 A
2007-2008 1 AB EC HI 166 PHILIPPINE HISTORY 3 B
2007-2008 1 AB EC POS 100 POLITICS AND GOVERNANCE 3 B
2007-2008 1 AB EC TH 151 THE CATHOLIC COMMITMENT OF TODAY'S FILIPINO: A SYNTHESIS 3 B
2007-2008 1 AB EC PH 103 PHILOSOPHY OF RELIGION 3 C+

 

 

Condsider me a geek for posting this.. pero wala.. happy na ako.haha..

 

 DS135.2 could've been an A. Oh well.

History went from C+ to B after finals.

Theo and Polsci were maintained.

Philo went from C+/B to C+ which means my final orals went blahhh..

 

QPI = 3.17 Highest QPI I've got on a regular sem... (summer was 3.25) 

 

loser! hahaha howell. ayan na eh.

 

 

 

one sem pa. one sem na lang.



November 8th, 2007


POSTED AT 02:25 AM

lots of things can happen over sembreak....

 

 

weight gained.

clothes bought.

 

changed mindsets.

new life paths.

 

 

can't wait til april.

 

can't wait til my life starts.

 

 

 

 

 

so. not. worth. it.  



November 9th, 2007

turning 20. rawr.
POSTED AT 02:04 PM

20 in a few hours.. still feel like an 8 year old.

 

 

first "party" in mommy's condo tonight. pizza, pasta, red wine and more... all for me, mommy, brotherbear, and cousins... yey.

 

 

tomorrow, will dinner with daddeh...

 

 

ahayyy...

 

 

 

Will head back to manila on sunday... see ya, roomie!!!!!!!!! 

 

 



November 10th, 2007


POSTED AT 03:41 AM

thereyago... 3 hours and 36 minutes na ako 20.. haha...

 

 

tonight was a success, i guess... yey..

slightly hectic, slightly stressful... pero over all, happy... 

 

tomorrow naman. grar. wish me luck folks! and pray that my dad gives me cash so i can treat... wahahaha pag nde, sorreh! hehehe

 

 

 



November 15th, 2007

FINALLY
POSTED AT 04:00 PM

INTERNET IN THE CONDO!!!!

 

 

no more internet cafe for me! 



November 17th, 2007


POSTED AT 01:32 AM

today went GRRREAT

 

was ALMOST late for spanish class.

Lunch with Viva.

Ice skating with Mags.

Coffee.

Tambay with Ja, MM, Chelsea, Uzzi and RJ at Ateneo parking then Seattle's Best Coffee.

 

 

Sorry Viva, couldn't go to Fort. And Ach, couldn't go to Gbelt. Staying sober... =s

 

 

 

 

Overall the first week of school has been going swell. I'm happy. No emo moments, or whatever. Hope this lasts! =)

 

 

 

THANK GAWD for friends.  



November 18th, 2007


POSTED AT 11:37 PM

After coming home at around 2ish AM Saturday, I spent the rest of the morning in bed. Got up around noon, showered, went mcdo drive thru, then headed over to My's place to do that ARPT tower building thing. We went to Shoppersville to grab some materials, then finished up the lists and other stuff at her house.

 

Around 4ish, I met up with MM, Ja, Uzzi, Chelsea, Rj, Dainiel, and Neal at ISO so we could all go to Eurostar for the carnival.

 

Yippeyyy.... Right?

 

 

Took an effing long time to get to Roxas. When we got there, parking was full. My tires almost got stuck in the mud. ROAR.

 

Having parked and  paid, we walked around and checked out the rides. We decided to go on the Ferris Wheel that looked like a giant Christmas lantern. Uzzi, MM, Chelsea and I took a carriage, while Ja, Neal, Dainiel and Rj took another.

 

After the Ferris Wheel, they all wanted to go on the Ranger. NO WAY. I stayed below while they got their digestive systems pulled out through their asses in the AnchorsAway-looking ride that goes 360,  and keeps you upside down for a couple of seconds. NO WAY. Corny kung corny pota yoko nga. I dunwana feel my internal organs being ripped out of my body, no sir.

 

Next, we went on the Flipper. I went on this ride a few years back with Frans and Sannds. Back then I was slightly buzzed and ended up throwing up. This time, though, I was completely sober. With MM to my right and RJ to my left, we went on the ride. Woohoo. Loved it. I kept my eyes closed the entire time, tho, so I wouldn't get dizzy.  

 

Neal and Uzzi were down after this ride. =( After a few minutes of sitting on the ground, they went back to the parking lot and stayed in the car while Dainiel, Ja, Rj, MM, Chelsea and I  lined up for Bump Cars.

 

 

After that, they wanted to go on the Flying Fiesta, but it started raining, so we headed back to the car.

 

 

UZZI ANG HIRAP MONG KA CONVOY NANGIIWAN KA BOOOO.

 

 

We all met up again at Mr. Kabab in QAve where we stayed til like 1:30/2ish (We got there around midnight). Then we all brought Chelsea home, before going our separate ways in Katipunan.

 

 

 

 

 

1. Twas a bad time for me to go to the Carnival - I was still feeling the post-ice skating muscle pangs. Plus, I only had Chicken Nuggets that day, so even without the rides, my stomach already felt queasy (sp?), what with the hyperacidity, etc.

2. I wasted 300 bucks + gas. The time we spent at Eurostar was bitin and we dint get to enjoy the rides that much.

 

3. But the company was great. It made the gastos and hassle well worth it.  Uzz, M, Ja, Chels, Rj, Neal, and Dainiel, na-enjoy ko suuuuper!!!!

 

Can't wait til our next labas!!!  Yey.

 

 

See ya guys! =) 


Listening to: Better when we're together


November 20th, 2007


POSTED AT 12:08 AM

difficult it is, deciphering one's own feelings for a person. more so trying to read another person's thoughts.

 

 

the feat lingers on the brink of impossibility.  

 

why think? why bother?

 

 

 

difficult it is, denying one's feelings to one's self.  

 

 

close your eyes and choose to stay blind.  

 

 


and the excruciatingly painful part lies in ridding your thoughts of something that has been perpetually dangled in front of your face.

 

 

shut your heart's doors and let no one in.  

 

 

why feel? why bother? 

 



November 24th, 2007


POSTED AT 02:44 AM

Sa ganitong laro
kung saan hari ang malabo.

Huwag ipilit
huwag nang kumapit.


Sa ganitong laro
kung saan ang nangunguna'y bato.

Ubod ng pait
huwag nang kumapit.


Sa ganitong laro
kung saan ang umibig ay talo.

Wala, liban sa sakit.
Huwag masaktan.
Huwag nang kumapit.




Wag kang sumampa sa isang labanan
kung hindi ka nakapag warm up

Listening to: hinahanap ang iyong kamay bakit ang hirap mong kasabay


November 26th, 2007


POSTED AT 01:44 AM

i can and i will. i dun need you in order to be happy.


November 28th, 2007

facebook picture personality test
POSTED AT 01:14 AM

Temperament
Cosmopolitan
When you wake up in the morning, you set out to impress and to make a lasting impression on those who you encounter. You surround yourself with all the right people and right things - making you a real trendsetter. Others admire and want to be just like you. Second best will not do - it's the best (and only the best) for you. You are attentive to detail in yourself, your surroundings and your social circle.
Interests
Thrill Seeker
You are interested in anything that is exciting and pleasurable. You're not afraid to indulge yourself - you live by your own set of rules and don't allow yourself to get hung on what others think. For the most part, you are independent and do whatever you please to do. Trying to stop you from doing something only makes you want it even more. At the end of the day - you live for life's most thrilling moments.
Amusement
Adventurous
It's a good thing that you are filled with energy and ambitions (that others sometimes find exhausting) because you're continually looking for a new adventure and exciting experience. You struggle with a continual feeling of restlessness which constantly pushes you to the next level of excitement. Once you have accomplished one thing, you are eager to accomplish something more exciting, riskier and distinguishable.
Passion
Physical
You are a cuddle bug - from a warm hug shared with your best friend to steamy sex with your partner, you enjoy every bit of human contact that you can get. You demonstrate your love for others most fluidly through physical one-on-one contact and you feel the most loved when you are being touched. You feel disconnected when you are physically isolated from others. You're a people person and a lover of all things human.


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