POSTED AT 01:04 AM

budzter

amazing how you can connect with someone more than a decade and a half older than you are...

 

sheesh.

 

 

nothing like a few beers and great conversations with new people.

 

 

i just might be too old for my age...

 

OR NOT! 

 

 

 

 

thanks (ate) jen!! thanks (kuya) peds, (kuya) joe, CJ, danica, and of course, (SIR) LEO! great night! will definitely see you guys again before the week ends. =) and i am definitely taking that com class! hahahaha...

 

 

 

this is what i need in my life - new stuff, new people, new... whatevers. i love it.

 

love it to bits and pieces.

 

 

JEN YOU OWE ME A JACK'S LOFT DATE!!!! 

POSTED AT 11:49 PM

budzter

by the way that dev eco report went well. great. =) we got a B lang though, but at least noh, considering we started with F. GREAT.

 

 

 

sooooo... what next?

 

march 21, dev eco finals. I CAN DODIS!!! PRAMIS! I WILL STUDY!!

 

 

 

 

 

first EB meeting on wednesday. let's see how this goes!!! ( i hope i get to go considering extremely "tight" scheds. gee whiz)

 

POSTED AT 11:52 PM

budzter

just came from another inuman at ocho.. haha great food, drinks, plus great company makes for a great night. thankyou jen, leo and everyone else. muwazshs

POSTED AT 12:33 PM

budzter

i decided to go to class this morning. i dunno why, since he stopped checking attendance already, but i just felt like it.

 

after class, stacy, gen and i along with calvin and raf just sat around for about an hour or so.. catch up. chill. blahblahblah. i still have to take calvin out to lunch at mang jimmy's! i promised him that november pa! sorry bro! before you go back to california, promise! =)

 

was gonna sleep when i got home, but carlo ram was online. wahh i miss. get your ass back in the pinas, now na! hahaha  

 

tapossss. wala. tapos na. yun lang.

 

 

 

 

i'm kinda confused. i was supposed to go with krista to bulacan today to meet her parents and talk about the moving-into-the-new-house plans, but theeen, coding car ko, and her class ends at 2:30. there's no way we'd get to NLEX by 3, right? so risky shit. PLUS the lex EB meeting at 4:30 (which i can ditch, if i had to, but then yun nga, the coding problem isn't solved.) , soo uhmm we leave at 7? or postpone the trip? hmmn.

 

 

 

GRRR i really want that house!! and i am getting that people are so malabo! I AM IN NEED OF TWO (female) HOUSEMATES!! ANYONE INTERESTED???  

 

 

i wanna jack's loft. now na.

 

 

 

weekend plans:

Friday night

lex party

i.s. party

inuman?

 

 

Saturday night

AJMA party?

 

 

hmn hmn hmnnnn...  

POSTED AT 12:50 AM

budzter

whereas new people are great, it's always nice to go back to the people you lurve.

 

i missed my bitchez a whole lot! and to think that, technically, it's only been less than a week!!!

 

i am hating this cinderella curfew more and more cause it cuts the time i spend with you guys short.  and we could've watched that movie, too! stupidass curfew. grar.

 

 

 

eastwood with mags and sannds tonight. my condolences to francine and her family for the death of her aunt.. =( that was why she wasn't able to join us.

 

lots of plans for summer! alin dun tuloy?

1. Tagaytay

2. Batangas

3. Zambales

4. Bora

5. Galera

Mags? Frans? Sannds? plan na tayo so i can tell my parents!! :D :D :D

 

 

i miss not caring about anything. it may seem like i've been spending most of my time bumming, and i have, but i still can't stop myself from thinking. and this week's supposed to be my break from reality before i start with the schoolshit again.

 

 

i'm starting to miss my team. =( will drop by within the week, that's for sure.

 

 

i should stop drinking. i should stop going to places that'd tempt me to drink. i'm getting fatter. sheesh. haha. speaking of which, i survived a jack's loft tambay without a drop of alcohol! fishbowl ice tea and soup! whoot! 

 

 

i'm considering not taking summer anymore and just go bum at the farm. at the farm - not my dad's place, nor my mom's place - the farm, or the beach. wherever. whatever. i wanna disappear from reality and go get myself lost in some far off place or something.

or not.

cause if i do, i'm gonna miss my bitchez, my dormies, my blockmates (both IS and F2), and everyone else.  PLUS i'm not gonna get a chance to take that minor. so uhh... yeah.

 

i'll just disappear into that unknown place once i'm done with this schoolshit.... which would be, uhh, 9 years from now? *eyeroll*

 

 

 

 

* i still haven't *

been to the DS department

done my project lineup for the internals department

as much as looked at the new probset for metrics, which i need to ace.

done my philo excuse letter, nor submit my medical cert. for labor trials, which, by the way, was finished last month

done dev eco

done FA

done international finance

 

god bless my report card. god bless my soul.

 

 

 

 

i love you mags! sannds! frans! i still miss you guys! gusto ko overnight hangout ulit! i miss those! school's a bitch. panira. sheesh.  

POSTED AT 12:56 AM

budzter

by the way, i still fall too fast, and i'm still fickle. asakapa. >

POSTED AT 12:24 AM

budzter

 

Shepherd:  

COME live with me, and be my love;
And we will all the pleasures prove
That hills and valleys, dales and fields,
Woods, or steepy mountain yields.

And we will sit upon the rocks,
Seeing the shepherds feed their flocks
By shallow rivers, to whose falls
Melodious birds sing madrigals.

And I will make thee beds of roses
And a thousand fragrant posies;
A cap of flowers, and a kirtle
Embroidered all with leaves of myrtle;

A gown made of the finest wool
Which from our pretty lambs we pull;
Fair-lined slippers for the cold,
With buckles of the purest gold;

A belt of straw and ivy-buds,
With coral clasps and amber-studs:
And if these pleasures may thee move,
Come live with me, and be my love.

The shepherd-swains shall dance and sing
For thy delight each May-morning:
If these delights thy mind may move,
Then live with me and be my love.
 

 

Nymph :

IF all the world and love were young,
And truth in every shepherd's tongue,
These pretty pleasures might me move
To live with thee and be thy love.

Time drives the flocks from field to fold,
When rivers rage and rocks grow cold;
And Philomel becometh dumb;
The rest complains of cares to come.

The flowers do fade, and wanton fields
To wayward winter reckoning yields:
A honey tongue, a heart of gall,
Is fancy's spring, but sorrow's fall.

The gowns, thy shoes, thy beds of roses,
Thy cap, thy kirtle, and thy posies
Soon break, soon wither, soon forgotten,—
In folly ripe, in reason rotten.

Thy belt of straw and ivy buds,
Thy coral clasps and amber studs,
All these in me no means can move
To come to thee and be thy love.

But could youth last and love still breed,
Had joys no date nor age no need,
Then these delights my mind might move
To live with thee and be thy love.

 

 

 

(Marlowe and Ralegh) 

 

 

lakas ng hatak ng reply ng nymph. in one word: ULOL!!!!

 

i've loved these two poems since i read them back in second year high school.. i love love love the nymph's reply.

 

i remembered this poem while watching the flowers i received from friends last valentines day begin to wither.. flowers, like love, DO fade. there's no such thing as forever. kaya girls! let us not be fooled by honey tongues and hearts of gall, cause they don't last.

 

 

diane, say that to yourself over and over, cause that's something you gotta remember. 

POSTED AT 04:23 AM

budzter

i think i've just lost a friend. =(

POSTED AT 12:15 AM

budzter

KARLOMAGNO ALEJANDRINO YOU ARE BY FAR THE BESTEST FRIEND LIFE COULD OFFER...

 

thankyou for staying with me through all the shit and crap that life has thrown at me.

 

friends for life, bro!  

POSTED AT 12:39 AM

budzter

shucks. you should've told me earlier. why'd you wait so long before breaking this to me? booo.. alabshoo pare!! i will miss you oh so badly!!!!

 

 

thank you for being such a good friend for the past 3 years!

 

thanks for the inumans, the hugs, the advise, the dancing, listening.., for the roadtrips, and for everything you've taught me.

 

i will forever remember you everytime i talk to a parking lady, or drink gin+lime+sprite, hell i will remember you everytime i go drinking, cause it was at your house, with you that i first learned to drink. you have no idea what sort of impact you've had on my life after three years of friendship. thank you!!!

 

i know it won't end here - i'll still get to see you, two years from now, or when i find myself in that part of the world. pero takte, nasenti ako todo!!!!

 

 

we still have 2 months left, let's make the most of it.  

 

alabshoo pare! *hugs* 

Listening to: mind trick

POSTED AT 11:21 PM

budzter

long day... well kinda..

 

woke up at 11, took a shower, then bought double cheeseburger meal for me and chicken fillet for jen, then ate brunch... was in ateneo by 1:00. dropped by the OSCI office then went to the lex room to get the invites thingy...

 

after that,  i went around to give them out (but i wasn't able to give them directly,... just found some common friends then made them pa abot...).. went to the range and hung out til 3:00.. talked to derv while waiting

 

3:00-3:45 was in class until Sab and I decided to ditch the rest of the lecture and hang at the smocket. the class ended at 4:00 instead of 4:30, so we went, got our stuff then left.

 

was calling jen but she was busy daw so went home to print my excuse letter, but I fell asleep so i wasn't able to do that.

 

went to class - philo film viewing.  tuesdays with morrie. I cried from start to finish. as in two hours of crying.

 

after, was supposed to watch 300 with chill at eastwood. but the lines were so effing long, and the movie was gonna end at 10:40 PLUS the only seats left were crappy ones. so we'll watch tomorrow na lang...

 

we went to jack's loft instead. i had carbonara, onion soup and wengweng, chill had salpicao, some soup and wengweng... hung out til 9:40 then walked to starbucks to have a smoke. after that, we went windowshopping, tapos left eastwood at 10:10.. hassle yung as parking, so took some time there. brought her home and then got home at 9:40.

great =)

 

 

long but nice day.

 

 

i didn't know that international finance finals was gonna be this friday. no wonder they were all freaked and i was all chillax, kasi i dint know. sheesh. crunch time.

 

econometrics homework is due thursday. hay.

 

 

 

tomorrow, i will go to class. then work on metrics homework

 

then FINALLY watch 300 with chill

 

then study international finance. 

 

 

there are only 6 numbers for us to answer, since we've done the other 20, so no prob.

 

 

goodluck peepS!!! hellweekS are here. haha

 

 

 

 

one more thing, athlete's night on friday!!! AND gimmick with sina raffy. yey yey yeyyy!!!

 

 

 

 

POSTED AT 11:41 AM

budzter

and you would think that, with age, boys turn into men.

 

 

"boys will be boys" is right.

 

 

=( 

POSTED AT 08:45 PM

budzter

had a good day. went to class on time. last meeting na kasi. sir refused to postpone the finals. sheesh.

 

 

had breakfast with raf and chill at around 9 after finishing the metrics homework with stacy.

 

 

after breakfast, home na.. supposedly org stuff , but then... ... [fell asleep!]

 

watched the 2:45 showing of 300 at eastwood. yey yey yey!!!

 

 

after that we went to starbucks, dapat to study international finance  but to no avail. ended up talking til 7:30...

 

 

bought two books!

umberto eco's "five moral pieces" and  garcia-marquez' "memories of my melancholy whores"

 

although i would have wanted to get "memorias de mis putas tristes" (or something like that) in original spanish text (sir ambeth did tell me to learn spanish by reading texts written in spanish.. that's how he learned daw) kaso they dint have it eh, so oh well... 

 

 

hayyy... when i go card happy, i really go card happy. buti nalang on books, so my daddy would understand.

 

 

 

okay, i will read. i am excited.  

POSTED AT 12:28 AM

budzter

one smile.

 

take my breath away.

 

with one smile.

 

 

the touch of your hand.

 

send shivers down my spine.

 

with one touch.

 

 

 

 

 

why did it take so long for me to see you?

 

maybe i was blinded by the rest of them...

 

 

 

one smile. brighten up my day with one smile...  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

oh. my. god. can i keep you?
 

POSTED AT 06:23 PM

budzter

cigarette consumption is up to around 18 sticks per day. yes. i am officially a chain smoker.

 

 

i think i failed international finance. my first F!!! but let's keep our fingers crossed, now, shall we?

 

 

dint sleep at all last night. "studied". thanks leo for staying up with me...

 

 

thanks gen and raffy for the notes. and for your efforts in helping me with this subject. pag pumasa ako libre ko kayo pizza!

 

thanks my for keeping me company while i drowned myself in cigarette smoke right after the test

 

and thanks pau for the beer and the gin+rhum+something+something.

 

 

glad i'd always have my friends.

 

 

 

 

my body's giving way. grar. asthma's acting up, and yesterday i had chest pains again.

 

 

i think i'd have to fix this lifestyle again...

 

 

but i dunwana. so uhh. yeah. whatever.

 

 

 

my will pick me up in about five minutes, then we're off to athlete's night. 

POSTED AT 01:16 AM

budzter

four margaritas and a beer after and...

 

 

i dunno what i'm typing.

 

 

headache 

POSTED AT 01:20 AM

budzter

and no. i still don't want you in my life.

 

 

 

 

 

 

[no matter how gwapo, hot and irresistible you are.]

POSTED AT 01:37 AM

budzter

too much of you will get me schizo, promise. cause you make me happy and sad at the same time.

 

 

happy cause the sight of you makes me go nuts.

 

sad cause i know that the sight of you is all i'll ever have.  

POSTED AT 02:01 PM

budzter

i dint think it was humanly possible to be this happy and relieved over a D.

 

pero it's a D! not an F! I AM NOT REPEATING!!!!

woohoo..

 

i'm not repeating. i'm not repeating.

 

 

hayy but this means double time on my other subjects so i can save my QPI.

 

but still

 

NO F! yey. 

POSTED AT 02:02 PM

budzter

oh and i'm never taking another luis dumlao class. it's just plain insane.

POSTED AT 03:30 PM

budzter

when your lungs hurt

 

and all your lighters are out of gas

 

 

and you have empty packs of yosi lying around your room

 

and your car

 

and your bags

 

 

 

 

what does that say?

 

 

 

 

 

 

smoking too much! 

POSTED AT 06:55 PM

budzter

i'm falling into this and i'm not even stopping it.

 

 

enough of this kabaliwan.

 

 

 

enough.

 

 

 

aral  na nga ako.

 

 

 

 

POSTED AT 11:58 PM

budzter

nay! thanks for catching me each time i fall. for holding me when i'm down. for....

 

 

for....

 

 

for....

 

 

 

aylabyoo nay! 

POSTED AT 11:53 PM

budzter

pwede ba wag ka um-oo kung hinde? ok? leche.

POSTED AT 01:03 AM

budzter

Philo Synthesis paper - done.

Dev eco finals - done.

International Finance finals - done.

 

 

Not done:

Fine arts revised script (MAJOR MAJOR MAJOR REVISIONS NEEDED)

Philo orals.

Econometrics finals.

 

 

 

screw this sem's QPI. I'll be happy if I pass. get through third year, yey!!!!

 

 

after this I will...

 

get drunk. haha.

thursday night - hopefully inuman with bitchez. SANNDS TAGAYTAY! PLEASE?!?!?!

friday night - chill wants to go temple (EWW DOM HAUNT PERO CHEAP ENTRANCE. YECH. but we won't naman go to pick up guys, dba? dba? DBA? )

saturday - ARPT alumni - varsity shoot. bbbbut, i kinda wanna get on the plane already so uhh... huwa? (to self: ask coachies if you can fire on friday afternoon so you can have saturday)

 

and then and then and then... it's off to cebu for me!!!

 

where I will...

1. Beach with mom and cousins (SANA!!!)

2. LIVE in the Club Ultima gym and then stay in the pool til i grow scales.

3. visit the farm and enjoy the steady bum life. horseback riding! sana! sana sana sana.

4. meet up with highschool friends, hopefully.

5. SHOP! shop shop shop shop shop. 

 

 

hayyy sanaaaaa!!!!! sana sana sana. keeping fingers crossed.  sana nothing goes terribly wrong.

 

 

subjects for summer school:

money and banking

agricultural eco OR urban planning. which one.. hmmn. decisions decisions.

plus another subject, i dunno what yet. uhmm... spanish 2? or something..?

 

 

ahay. i  don't like na. no more. pleasE?

 

 

IF i decide to NOT take that minor, then I'll be taking 12 units both sems of my senior year. yeahboi. FREEDOM!!!

 

 

 

orayt orayt? here's to third year coming to its end. *clink* 

POSTED AT 04:02 PM

budzter

so this is it.

 

goodbye. 

POSTED AT 12:29 PM

budzter

i absolutely hate seeing

 

 

colored contacts on chimay-looking girls.

 

 

make them look even cheaper. 

POSTED AT 12:48 PM

budzter

three years ago, i had a stash of chocolates under my bed.

 

 

now i have a bottle of brandy.

 

 

 

my, how things change. 

POSTED AT 12:49 AM

budzter

after the semlong patapon session, i am now pressured to pass.

 

if only to prove to myself that i CAN be both patapon and matino at once. 

POSTED AT 02:24 PM

budzter

Summer Sched. Yey

 

march 30 to april 1 -> tagaytay-batangas roadtrip with the flabs.

april 2, 10 am -> flight to cebu

april 3 to i-dunno-when -> HOPEFULLY (and keeping my fingers crossed on this one) Bantayan Island Holy week with mommy.

april 9 -> I HAVE to be in Tacloban. Have to attend some family gathering for the death anniv of Lolo.

april 11 or 12 -> Go back to Cebu

april 13, 10 am -> flight to manila.

 

 

 

sinong mabait na magcclaim ng regform and report card ko? (AHEM, SANNDRA, AHEM)

 

 

Now, Metrics. Sheesh. Grar. Ayaw na. Ayaw na. Ayaw na.

 

 

 

i-F ko nalang kaya? bwahahahhaha

 

 

 

 

 

 

GRADES GRADES GRADES!!!!

 

Dev Eco final grade - C+

Grade breakdown -

Midterms - 1.0, 1.0, 2.0 -> D

Paper - 0.0

Report - 3.0

Finals - 2.5, 3.0, 3.0 -> B

Yey. Good show sa finals!!! Worth every effing second spent answering those thesis statements! 

 

 

Int'l Finance final grade - D (my first D!!!) 

Grade breakdown -

Long Exam 1 - 73

Long Exam 2 - 74

Final Exam - 71

 

Go figure.

 

 

FA script was handed in yesterday. Philo orals was finished today. Which leaves me with Metrics finals.

 

goodluck na lang sa QPI ko, di ba? orayt. nap time, folks! 

POSTED AT 06:56 PM

budzter

talked to my dad on the phone for three hours. yes, three hours..

 

 

(on my smoking)

"go ahead and drink as long as it's in moderation."

"..."

"but the smoking, that's gonna kill you."

"..."

"smoking is really bad for your health."

"what about jutes, daddy?"

"jutes? i dunno, i tried it once i dint like it"

 

 

 

(on me having a new crush)

"DADDY! my crush's so gwapo!"

"really? what's his name?"

"****"

"okay. as long as he's single!"

 

 

(on me wanting my own apartment)

"daddy, if i keep holding on to the edge of the pool, i won't learn how to swim!"

"yeah, okay, let go of the edge of the pool, but don't jump into the ocean."

"i'm not asking you to let me jump into the ocean, i'm asking you to let me get out of the wading pool and get into the real pool"

"you know a wise man once said 'experience is the most expensive school, unfortunately fools learn from no other'."

 

 

 

(on family dinners)

"dad let's all just stop pretending we're a family"

"who's pretending?"

"uhmm you?"

"i love your mom very much"

"right."

"but i'm a man with a lot of 'lust for life'" (lust for life my ass)

 

 

 

(on me wanting more independence)

"dad, you know before i started dancing i had really nice feet?"

"yeah? so?"

"they were nice and maputi and smooth"

"and?"

"but we were dancing on cement, right? so at first my feet would bleed? but after they healed, the skin became a whole lot thicker and it didn't hurt anymore"

"what's your point?"

"you gotta bleed to learn to dance" (eh? wala atang connect analogy ko.)

 

 

 

bwahahah.

POSTED AT 01:20 AM

budzter

Think: there's something you have to do. but you don't want to do it. but you have to do it. but you know that whether you do it or not wouldn't make a difference. but you still have to do it. grar.

 

i am hate hate hating econometrics!!!

 

GRADE COMPUTATION:

 

75% of my grade - 70.28

the remaining 25% will come from the finals exam which i will be taking in 12 hours.

 

 

if i get 100% on the finals, [(70.28 x .75) + (100 x .25)] = 77.71, a B.

if i get 33% on the finals,  [(70.28 x .75) + (33 x .25)] = 60.96, a D.

if i get 50% on the finals, [(70.28 x .75) + (50 x .25)] = 65.21, a C.

if i get 74% on the finals,  [(70.28 x .75) + (74 x .25)] = 71.21, a C+

 

you see, there is very little incentive for me to work hard, with B being my highest possible grade, and with 50% being the most practical, realistic  goal. 

 

BAKIT PA?

 

BAKIT NGA BA?

 

 

 

i am justifying my katamaran. i just don't want to anymore. i don't feel it! maybe i will, later, when i feel the pressure, and the push coming from that innate drive to work.  but right now, i'm just so sick of this schoolshit already.

 

grar. grar. grar.