Entries for January, 2007
January 1st, 2007
POSTED AT 02:50 PM it's 2007! astig.
i still want new parents!
kachat ko si carloram kanina. december 31 pa rin sa kanila. haha aliw. 2006 pa rin dun. 2007 na dito. haha haha haha.
okay, labo.
buhbye! shut me up.
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January 3rd, 2007
POSTED AT 06:22 PM hooray.
first day back, and i'm proud to say i was extremely productive!
class (i wasn't late!!!!) carwash parlor natio (school stuff) rustan's (groceries) range (for about 5 minutes! coach kasi, late!) eco dept (appointment for consultation) laundry study metrics (not done tho) eco consultation
done all those and it's only 6:12 pm ashtig!! so this is how a day goes when you start early, huh?
cigarette consumption = ZERO.
should i just quit? i mean i'm here na eh, and i'm not even craving a cig or anything.... weird. bahala na, let's see. people, do not tempt me. hehe.
food consumption = zero, except for a cup or two of mushroom soup.
is this bad? karlo seems to think so... but i still don't feel like eating. maybe detox for a few days? maybe eat later?
ahayy...
things i STILL have to do: (for school) finish studying metrics get a copy of that Eviews shit whatever for metrics read the dev reading list go to AIM library finish editing/revising FA script start studying for int'l finance
(outside school) SHOP!! need. new. clothes. go to the beach with sannds GO JOGGING!!!!! bring calvin to mang jimmy's (i promised him that last sem pa!!!!!) go out with blockmates!!! (IMISSYOUGUYS!!!)
and of course, STAY OFF THE ALCOHOL!!!
this year will be a sober year. hopefully.
weird, kung kelan ako nagdecide to cut down on the alcohol, we find out that Gen is in fact allowed to drink!!! GEN I HATE YOUR DAD, SWEAR |
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January 5th, 2007
POSTED AT 02:33 AM 2:16 am and i'm still up and reading this dev eco shiznit. and since i hate it so much, it takes me almost an hour to finish one chapter. i hate this. with every eco class i attend, i ask myself, why the fuck am i in this course? course. curse. course. curse. gah.
this afternoon, after that metrics quiz (that i oh so miserably failed, AGAIN) i started thinking, i do not want to do this for the rest of my life!!!! what was i thinking, substituting LM or Management with Eco??? What was the guidance counselor thinking when she told me that Eco would be the closest I could get to Management? what? exactly what? That's why i hate guidance counselors so much. And all psych majors for that matter. They think they know, when they don't.
about a year ago i said i'm going to stand by this decision. i shifted into this course, and i will finish it. i will not be like my brother, shifting into creative writing from molecular biology and biotechnology during his fourth year in college. but damnit, i am getting so tempted.
I can't imagine myself constructing econometric models while writing my thesis. Hell, I don't even have the patience to go through the readings for this dev eco major research paper, how much more for a whole thesis? EW. i find economic equations disgusting, whether or not I understand them... yuckier when I DON'T get them. UGH.
And what is this shit about making assumptions and predictions and estimations that never really come true??? "if you look at it in the neo-classical perspective, then that answer is acceptable. but the keynesians would disagree. they would propose an alternative prediction" "so which perspective is correct? who actually makes the correct prediction?" "neither. sometimes, when the actual measurement is closer to the neo-classical prediction, then sila yung magaling. if it's closer to the keynesian, sila naman yung magaling." POTAH.
can someone tell me what the point of all this is, exactly?
i so envy those taking opman now. I know it sucks. I know you guys would say i should be careful what i wish for. but damn. at least i could use that stuff when i go and work for the family business. rather than have all these equations for predictions that are never really accurate up my sleeve.
ahayy... okay, rant time's over. i gotta go back to the readings.
last! i wanna shift! but i dunno where!!!!! for sure, whatever course i shift into (if I DO SHIFT), i'd be delayed by ABOUT/ AT LEAST a year, but i'd graduate with a minor in eco. tempting tempting tempting thought. but that's out of the question.
i just figured if i'm gonna go after an MBA or a law degree, then there's no point stressing over subjects like econometrics and economic research.
but like i said, shifting SHOULDN'T even be an option. I should be working my ass off rather than sitting here in front of my PC writing about how i hate this frig course. curse. course.
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January 5th, 2007
POSTED AT 10:24 PM int'l finance dev group meeting training glorietta (2 hours in the face shop!!! grabeh sannds and mags when it comes to make up!!!) BUBBA GUMP!!!!! shared the platter with sannds... first aid (hours and hours of looking at hair and skin products. hayyy we are such girls! i mean, i dint even go gaga over the make up, but over the moisturizers..? hehehehe) home na.
hayyy, another jampacked, overspending day. tis days like these....... ... ... okay lang... i love you mommy pig and tita pig!!!!
still no cigs for me!!! hoooorahhh and an alcohol free gimmick, too!
tomorrow i will train. and train. and train. so that MAYBE on sunday, i will have enough confidence to compete. sana sana sana.
tatlong taon nang bumabaril, pumapaltos pa rin sa squeezing at sa stance. ang galing mo diane, grabe.
still no progress on that dev paper. well, VERY LITTLE progress. at least now we have an idea what data we'd be needing. now the hard part, looking for the data and the theories to back up the claim, which is prolly the bulk of the work. tis not helping that... ... ... ....
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January 8th, 2007
updating for the sake of updating POSTED AT 11:51 PM 1. i had a really weird dream. i was walking around some mall with a friend (i don't remember who) and there he was sitting on one of those benches. i didn't see him, but my friend did. she called out his name and said hello. i barely looked at him. my friend and i continued walking, and then all of a sudden i stopped and said "teka may babalikan lang ako". then i was brisk walking back to where he was sitting. but i woke up before i got there.
why it's really weird: * "crushless, windowshopping" = the dream was at the mall * i don't want him in my life = i walked past him. * "may babalikan lang ako" ---> what's that supposed to mean???
does this mean i am not totally committed to being crushless? that subconsciously, iniisip kong babalikan ko din siya?
gawwd, so much bull over a mere crush. pano pa kaya pag boyfriend, noh? ewww. disgusting thought.
2. lost during the CVAC competition last sunday. but then 218 out of 300 is way better than expected = i dint think i'd break 200. so at least, i still beat my expected score, which means i'm still okay. i need to train and train and train and train though, if i wanna be half as good as the other shooters (ahem, like CHIN for example.. I LOVE YOU MY!!! roadtrip bonding!! hehehe AND we dint get lost this time!!!
3. thirteen!!!! i haven't smoked a full stick for THIRTEEN days. THIS IS AN ACHIEVEMENT... i took a puff off of ez's cig last sunday and it still hurt a whole lot, and it tasted weird, too... i JUST MIGHT quit this smoking thing for good. (O, KARLO, HAPPY KA NA???)
4. I am still keeping off the alcohol. and i am bent on getting back on track academically. No, i will not completely give up my gimmicks with the flab four.., but i will definitely cut down on booze and parties. i will not go all the way back to being a lib kid either... it's just that i have my responsibilities, and i can only run from them for so long. time to face reality!
5. I am ignoring thoughts of shifting. I will just get this college shit over with so i can proceed to either law school or AIM. Whatever. besides, i got to thinking that maybe i'm being a scaredy-cat again, and that i am thinking of shifting because it's starting to get tough. guess i'll never really change, huh? my mom was telling me that when i was a kid i never finished anything. i'd start on a painting, and it'd look real good, and they're all looking forward to seeing the thing when it's done. but they never do. cause i stop in the middle of it. same goes for my writing. i have notebooks of unfinished short stories in a box somewhere in the house. maybe i'm afraid that whatever i'm doing will not look so good when it's done, as compared to when i was just starting. maybe. in any case, i shouldn't run this time. i'll stick this through. i HOPE I GET TO STICK THIS THROUGH, cause at the rate i'm going, i might actually get kicked off the course (knock on wood... okay, mejo far-fetched, and mejo exaggg. but it scares me...)
6. wondow shopping is great!!!! lots to look at! hehehe
7. i miss smocketing and my smocket friends. i don't miss smoking THAT MUCH tho. for one thing, I DON'T SMELL LIKE SMOKE ANYMORE!!! PLUS, i don't get chest pains moving from one building to another. hahahaha. hooorayy.
8. i heart scarlet from gone with the wind. what. a. character. if you're too tamad to read the book, watch the movie. it's four frig cds but it's well worth it. ALTHOUGH i hated the ending.
9. i should be studying instead of writing this update.
10. i will go and study! hehe
SCHEDULE: jan 15 - 21-25 of FA script, due jan 17 - int'l finance LT jan 20 - econometrics LT jan 30 - dev eco major paper due feb 7 - dev eco midterms
jan 12/13 - watch pyro show with sannds (SANAAAA MAY ORAS!!) jan 19 - AEA event (i forgot which..) jan 20 - AMA party, nbc tent (SANA HINDI AKO PAGOD)
i have to set my priorities straight and make a real sched and actually stick to that sched and manage my time properly, so i can do everything i have to do as well as everything i want to do. hayyyy....
masaya din naman ang ganito. minsan masarap yung mga panahong lasing ka lang at ang masasabi mo lang tungkol sa academics ay isang malaking BAHALA NA. pero minsan masaya ring maging stressed pero alam mong may pinatutunguhan ang mga ginagawa mo.
may pinatutunguhan nga ba?
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thank you allan for opening my mind to this. hahahaha. January 10th, 2007
warning : geek talk about to start POSTED AT 11:57 PM you just know you're turning into a geek when you look at a table and say "ang ganda ng pagkakapresent ng data!!" or when you say "i like the way this book discusses the concepts as compared to the other book". ALSO when you say "this is my favorite equation!"
GAWD, this is not what i want for myself!!! data, and graphs and equations and line movements. THOSE are not something i normally would appreciate. GAHHH i got out of being a lib kid FOR A REASON!. ho humph.
but then again, if this is what it takes for me to pass, tangina, sige, nerd na kung nerd!!!
okay, so i went to the library this afternoon, and i borrowed a book for the first time this school year. HAH. i dint know they had that new self check-out whatever thingy. astig. no more lines.
i took out salvatore's introduction to international economics and so far it's not really helping with the prob set. the book isn't working, damnit! i will be photocopying raf's notes tomorrow. (THANKYOU!!!!!!!)
the gujarati book for econometrics isn't very good either. so i'm looking around for another book. marlo says the danao book isn't any better, so i went over to the lib and found this book by Dale Poirier "intermediate statistics and econometrics". The table of contents is pretty similar to our sylabus so i took it out. i'm gonna try to read it tonight. hopefully i'd understand the first few points at least and not feel too TOO stupid when i go to class tomorrow.
that's the worst feeling, noh? going to class and feeling stupid?
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January 10th, 2007
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January 12th, 2007
POSTED AT 07:57 PM i've been cig free for 17 days. CIG FREE. i unconsciously had a dose of nicotine at hookah bar this afternoon. =( but it only tasted of strawberries and such... i plead = not guilty!!!
met with raf and chill after int'l finance class. we discussed our dev paper, and then i made copies of his int'l finance notes (THANK YOU OH SO MUCH!!!).
i went to the range after, where i met tata and pau and mondi and jonx. unfortunately, i arrived after my left =(
tata wanted to go arcade, so i said i'd go with her to eastwood, as long as we'd be back in ateneo by 2 pm. so off we went!
after a few rounds of dance mania, we went over to hookah bar, where we had our GUILT-FREE, (cause we dint know!!!! we're innocent!) dose of nicotine (as mentioned earlier). we're off the cigs kasi... so there.
we were getting the parking ticket validated when we ran into Miguel Carlos. Gawd, i dint realize i actually missed him!!! seeing him around school and all.... wala. howell. i hate it when friends from the higher batch graduate!!! nakaka miss!!!
ayun, we said our goodbyes and headed back for ateneo. hung at the range til 4:30 when i went to watch Ja play, but only for a bit. went back to the range lang and bugged dervin and paolo madrid while they were having this serious philo-ish talk. hayyy. boys.
then i went over to the range to watch the ARPT basketball team (tiratirabangbang, whataname) play against ACLC. and to "windo shop" na rin. hayyy i only wish tinuloy ko playing for ARPT in IAC. but then i think my dad would've been proved right = i'll make a fool of myself. haha
and then sanndra wanted to check this thing out at cervini field. but then it was dead. there weren't any people. and the theme was Y vote. it's supposed to be this thing where they encourage the youth to vote or something. i don't really know. i dint like it cause first off, the fact that not many students went shows just how indifferent the people from our school are. and it's just annoying. second, i dint want to get guilt-tripped for being part of the indifferent group. third, cause the show dint seem to be too well-organized.
or maybe i left before the thing actually picked up.
i don't know. i just dint like the feel of it, and i don't think it helped that i dint feel too well (i haven't had a bite to eat save for a some siomai, no rice or anything, just siomai, so mej stomach ache) and that the show was on the field, therefore the people were standing.
okay, call me maarte, whatever.
hayyy this day has been extremely unproductive. i hate it. i REALLY should make a real sched for myself and ACTUALLY STICK TO IT. hayyy...
i SHOULD go NERD MODE for the next couple of days. SHOULD. and i probably will. so REAL FRIENDS, please stop tempting me.
and stop trying to tempt me with the cigarettes and the alcohol as well.
i'm trying to stay serious for now. you all know i'm not very good with the self control bit, so STOP HANGING THINGS IN FRONT OF MY FACE.
okay, sorry, bitch much. i'll go take a nap. maybe this'll wear off.
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January 13th, 2007
POSTED AT 04:25 PM The J curve is not just applicable to the trade balance...
after a certain change, people won't adjust just like that. thus for a certain period immediately after the change, things will get worse, and then shoot up. hence, the J shape of the curve.
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January 14th, 2007
POSTED AT 10:49 PM today's food intake. (okay, you really need not read this!) 1. happy homes' ginisang sayote with half cup of rice 2. one taaalll glass of light coke 3. 2 bottles of redbull 4. 1.5 bananas 5. 2 pieces piaya 6. happy homes' ginisang sitaw at kalabasa, no rice 7. seafood flavored cupnoodles 8. CHOCOLATE (DINKY KASI!! hahaha.. sure. blame it on her. hahaha) 9. 10 pesos worth of cool air.
even while on a pseudo diet, i am still a pig. howgawd.
yosi: ZERO. although i am soooo craving for a stick, or even just a puff.
i think i need more cool air.
i dint get any studying done. well i did. sobrang konti.
got up at 11 soundtripped with jen ate talked to my dad on the phone for about 2 hours practiced yoga positions with jen soundtrip ulit while resting our legs (we don't want any of those green veins now, do we?) shower read konti kwentuhan read konti kwento ulit ym read kwento kwento kwento blog
hahaha. to think i reserved this day for international finance.
good thing dan asked those questions, so i'd be pushed to look at the notes. ahayy...
HEY, i DID read last night!!! so uhh.. okay wala. sige, buhbye
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January 16th, 2007
POSTED AT 12:10 AM "wait lang ah may babalikan lang ako"...
ano? sino? bakit? saan?
huwhaaaat???
"bat kailangan mo akong ipahiya?"
ikaw? huh? pano? kailan? saan?
don't you just hate it when you wake up while you were in the middle of a dream, and you remember the last line or the last person you saw, and you don't remember what happened before that, and you reeeaaally want to know what happens next, so you try to go back to sleep and you do, but you don't see the end of the dream anyway, and then you end up being late for class?
i sure do. goodgawd.
because i see you in my dreams i might as well choose to sleep forever |
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January 16th, 2007
POSTED AT 02:50 AM according to my utterly inaccurate weighing scale, i have lost 7 pounds and am at the upper limit of my weight interval. ho humph.
loooong way to go, huh? i only wish i can keep this pseudo diet up AND keep off the alcohol.
yeah right. i'm already planning my post-hellweek weekend inuman! har har..
oh yeah, and stretching/yoga positions help pala talaga. haha wala lang. |
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January 18th, 2007
POSTED AT 11:20 PM got over the first half of hellweek yesterday morning. tomorrow i'll see how i did. good god, i hope it was worth all the effing effort i put in. i hope making econometrics part of my opportunity cost was well worth it.
well, it's a good thing i prepared answers for all the questions on the list, but i really wish i was made to answer that neo-classical, keynesian whatever thing, cause i could've written something more "whoa" on that, or on the J-curve, or practically anything from numbers 8 til 23. i wanted to make graphs and equations. but alas, i was made to explain balance of payments and the philippine dealing system - boooorrrring. i HOPE he's okay with what i wrote tho. from what i heard, he's so strict with checking those "essays". ahayy.
kawawa naman si gen. made a mistake with the questions, read the wrong instruction. she MIGHT fail that test
i gained back 2 pounds in 2 days!!! whhhaaaaaaaaa???? i've been eating while studying, and drinking those oh so fattening coffee fraps from seattle's and figaro. gahh.. okay, i won't panic just yet... but i will have to do something about it. hmmn. tea and soup for two days? hmmmn. hmmn. hmmn.
i jogged today after my philo group meeting (which ended at like 8:40ish pm). apparently my lungs still haven't recovered from all the abuse i dealt it. ahayy... range to bell to xavier, around bell field, back to bell, ISO, gate three, down that road parallel to katipunan, gate two, back to the range. not too long, not too short. i don't wanna push it.
i HAVE mentioned that i was rejected for ALTP, right? anyway in case i haven't, the infirmary dint clear me, and they started talking about antibiotics and shiznits like that, but HELLO, both my parents are doctors, and they dint fuss over this cough. they just insisted that i lay off the cigs. PLUS my ALTP is just teaching public school kids, so what if i'm having asthma???? i can drive to the place, teach a bunch of kids, then drive back. mapapagod ba ako nun??? tsss.
ayun.
so now that the first half of hellweek is up, i can loosen up a bit, and get a li'l sleep. things left to do:
econometrics 1st LT area orientation (for ALTP) philo group paper 10 page script for FA revise 5 page script for FA (okay, so i submitted CRAP)
watch allan (gen's kuya) in that fashion show whatever (bwahahaha) go to that floating book store SHOP FOR A TOP... go to marlo's party (sat night) go to ama party with bitchez (sat night also!)
all in three days. go fight, kayang kaya mo yan!!!!
i cheated off someone's cheat card to make my cheat card for that econometrics long test. CHEAT!!!! haha (LEGAL cheating. if there's such a thing)
alcohol free for 18 days. "cigarette" free (i DID take singlepuffs off other people's cigs, so i haven't been 100% nicotine free, but at least i dint smoke one entire stick. not even more than two puffs, within a week) for 23 days now. how nice. gahhh cough go away so i can smoke!!!!
on january 20, i shall break this streak. i will go and get drunk and smoke all i want. i don't care if it'll hurt after. i just need a break before i start on another study-athon...
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January 19th, 2007
POSTED AT 06:33 PM so. not. worth. it.
ugh. scratch the semi happy tone of the previous entry. i'm really annoyed. with myself, with my stupid score... UGH. okay, so i studied hard for that international finance test, right? well, the results were given back this morning, and i got a 73. a 73. a D. D. D. D!!!! putangina.
one of the few tests i didn't cram for and i got a D. tangina i feel so stupid. so not worth making econometrics an opportunity cost!!!!!!!!!!!!ARRRRRGH!!!!!
AAAAARRRGH...
so now i'm staring at this econometrics sample test with no effing clue what to do. I DON'T KNOW THIS SHIT!!!!!!!!! :-s :-s :-s
I AM GONNA FAIL THIS!!!!!!!!!!!
tangina i'm feeling so bad, i'll probably be smoking a pack before this night ends. i hate this. hate hate hate hate.
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January 21st, 2007
POSTED AT 09:17 PM is un-friend-ing a "friend" "right"?
does that even make sense?
if you're really friends, then there's no such thing as "un-friend-ing", right? cause if there were, then ... you weren't really friends to begin with...
i know you'd think this is hypocritical, cause i'm guilty of this as well, but i absolutely despise inconsiderate little brats.
i think my mom's right. i should stop thinking about other people's problems. i don't have to. i should stop trying to be responsible for other people, i'm not even responsible enough to take care of myself. i think the guidance counselor was right as well - i can always say no.
i can always say no. and if they hate me for it, then they aren't real friends. right? right.
and if they can't deal with that, then they can just disappear for all i care, cause they weren't worth my time to begin with.
okay, angst.. APAGS KASI, NACONSCIOUS TULOY AKO SA "MASYADO KANG MARAMING ANGST" COMMENT MO!!!!! >:{
so there.
i went out with my dormies today. <3 i love.
i hate my landlady. I ABSOLUTELY HATE MY LANDLADY. I MORE THAN HATE HER, I DOUBLE HATE HER!!!! ask me why.
i hope to gaawwwd my dad would allow me to move out by next sem. which reminds me, there's an apartment for rent across the street. whoot. |
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January 23rd, 2007
POSTED AT 11:26 AM i swwwwear to gawwwd i am starting to hate this place a whooollleee lot. GAH.
okay, so i haven't been smoking, but i'm still getting asthma attacks. i found out that lauren and dinky are getting sick, too. i have this huge feeling it's cause of the dust coming from the construction whatever outside.
jovi (the maid) woke me up at EIGHT to move my car. and she wasn't even nice about it! ("DIANE LIPAT MO DAW KOTSE MO! HUY LIPAT MO KOTSE MO!!"
i fell asleep at around 2:30. one hour and a half after i closed my eyes. why??? cause these effing koreans were talking all night!!!! solution - ipod. buti nalang.
ack. i'm not happy. and the fact that PUMAPANGIT AKO NGAYON is so not helping.
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January 26th, 2007
POSTED AT 11:57 PM i don't get it. i just don't effing get it!!! tsss.
i obviously had a long, tedious, busy week. ask me for details if you want em.
i hate confusing people.
i hate weird people.
i hate undecided people.
i hate myself. good god. |
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January 27th, 2007
POSTED AT 01:02 PM i guess there are just some stuff that are easy to talk about.
others are just... uhmm. yeah. |
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January 29th, 2007
POSTED AT 11:45 PM okay, everyone's written about the weird weather already. i love it! i hope it stays like this na forever!!!
pig out day!
lunch with chill and krista at shakey's dinner with chill at jack's loft starbucks with chill and raf
still not done with the dev paper *sigh* when will this end
tomorrow at 6 pm! hehehe
okay, so after the dev eco paper, dev eco midterms naman, then dumlao second LT (that is, if i don't get dropped out of the class for being late all the time)
hayyy, when one ends, another starts. pero konting tiis na lang, and i'll be off to the beeeaaaach!!!! whoot.
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January 30th, 2007
POSTED AT 12:41 AM marlo's "there's a miracle everyday" (or something) stat message and his "it's the little things" statement made me open an old file i made back when I was in first year.
"Happiness. If you just know where to look"
Sometimes we get too preoccupied with all the shitty things going on around us that we fail to notice all the little things that should matter.
And sometimes we insist on looking for bigger, louder things to extract happiness from. Unfortunately, it's usually too hard to find such things, so we end up disappointed and frustrated. But if we just sit back and enjoy the small, subtle happy things around us, the world would seem so much brighter.
Haha. Talk about an entry of cliches. But hey, it's helping.
Thanks Marlo! >:D< |
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January 31st, 2007
HALA! POSTED AT 07:50 PM you're my friend, friend. Friend.
so it's okay na you're the first person who came into my head when i heard i won a starbucks planner, right?
it's okay, right? since you're my friend?
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