POSTED AT 08:06 PM

budzter

boooooo parking ng seattle's katipunan! next time maglalakad nalang ako. pffft

 

POSTED AT 10:56 PM

budzter

nagreregress. nagreretard mode. hyper.

 

 

all because

 

 

tadaaaaa

 

 

ayaw magbasa ng history

 

 

 

harrrumph.

 

namimiss ko accounting.

POSTED AT 09:29 PM

budzter

ayyyyoko magbasa. booooooo....

GHC.
POSTED AT 09:42 AM

budzter

 

 

 

from now on make it strictly business - we pay her and she leaves us alone.

she'd better stop hasssling us, she's not our mom.

 

follow her rules, just so i don't get any bull from her nymore.

 

but really, she can't stop us from talking about what we feel. or doing what we want.

 

i'd have to admit, we had a big part in making this mess. I had a big part in this mess, and i'm okay with cleaning up our share of it; she'd better clean up hers.

 

i'm sorry she overheard/eavesdropped on the other night's conversation, it wasn't done on purpose. but i'm not sorry we talked about it.

i'm sorry if her feelings were hurt, but really, no hypocrisies whatsoever, that's what we thought/still think/want to think of her. and you can't really blame us if we do. (it's sort of a passed on thing - even from ..................... we're all gonna agree on the same things.. why'd they move out in the first place? AND jen and i aren't trying to pollute anyone's minds, so don't start thinking that)

 

bull. really. i mean everytime things get comfortable here, she turns into this nagging green monster who just sucks the fun out of everything. blah...

 

but anyway, let's not get to that.

 

you! don't worry, i won't be bothering you. let's just stay out of each other's lives and, like i said, make this strictly business. let's make it so that we have no attachment aside from the "lessor-lessee" described in that contract of yours. don't get me wrong, my being friendly with you wasn't at all false - you're an okay person/you guys are okay people, but i don't like the way you all do business, and if we're gonna make our comments, you'd better not eavesdrop again and save yourself the heartache. cause really, once we start tripping, we won't stop.

 

sa mga di naman talaga kasali at nadamay lang, my apologies.

 

 

self notes:

tone it down.

if you'll drink, drink at drew's na lang. hahah

no more talking to them. (not even the kids. no more personal contact.)

pay up.

stay out as long as possible.

get your money's worth.

stay as faaarrr from her as possible, cause you can't change the way you think about her, moving out isn't an option as of now, besides you're not really 100% sorry, so just stay out of each other's faces so as not to make the mess even worse.

 

 

but i agree with ine, they're taking a huge portion of our freedom by restricting out talllk. hmmmn. sarap gumanti. [i'm pissed cause i felt bad after talking to her, but then when we talked about the other night (we being sina jen ine etc.), the stuff she said she heard weren't really the center of our conversation, and weren't even as loud as last week.. so they listened in on the entire thing? pfffft.] ang dami pa namang personal ekek na napag usapan last night. and i don't think "discreet" is in my, ine, or danica's vocabularies.

 

 

wheew. just had to let that out, but even here i have to tone things down and not go all out with my guilt/anger/inis/confused/etc etc feelings. mahirap na baka may magbasa pa nitong hindi dapat nagbabasa nito (dumadami pa naman sila).

 

anyway.  other news.

 

jen ine danica lauren me and dinky (well, she dint really join us) belly danced in my room last night. hhahaha fun. mukhang itutuloy na daw yun save-diet-ipon thing nina jen. hahaha tapos tapos gumagawa ng plans to jog. AND we're gonna lipat tambayan na - seattle's? why not. hahaha. walang gremlin dun.

hmmn. thazzit muna.

POSTED AT 12:26 PM

budzter

relativessss... you know you love them but sometimes they can be..... uhmmm... yeah. hahaha.

 

been spending the past few days with my dad, my aunts, uncle boy, and kuya tud.

 

can i just say, i can see now that auntie edna is verrrry sensible. but i don't like being asked about my parents. that's something i don't wanna think about anymore.

 

auntie lachay naman can be extremely loud. think: me 100 times louder. seriously! no joke! but she's a lottttt of fun, if you're in the mood. if you're not, sorry ka, she won't back down. ang kulittttt and ang meeeeaaan! kakaaliw tho. hhahaa.

 

uncle boy, i can't really say, since he just keeps his mouth shut.

 

auntie ruth and tudtud will be, well, auntie ruth and tudtud.

 

haha.

 

kawawa si dad tho, i think he overheard me talking to auntie edna last night and i was saying that real estate is nice, but i can't see myself doing that for the rest of my life. kawawa naman siya, that must've broken his li'l heart, since for a long time he's been expecting me to take over and help him. howelllll.... but it's true, what can he do about it? howelllll...

 

ayown., i might be going back to makati again tonight, so i can spend more time with them, and tomorrow i'm cutting all my classes, except for history and philosophy.

 

 

gahhhh no car for me today! buti nalang apags brought me home kanina (nadaanan nyako while i was walking), cause my blood was just about to boil. ANG INIIIIITTTT badtrrrrrip! tsaka gutom nako and yosing yosi na, so uhmmm buti nalang. haha.  (salamat pare! haha)

 

ayown, yun lang. today i'll be

going to the range to tambay

then lib for history homework

do history paper

then mvp for lex interviews (*wink* *wink*)

go to aea for marketing meeting. (quick lang, then i'll ask stacy to fill for me...)

go back to the range to get details on the orsem and see how i can help out

go to berchmans for that guidance exam

have dinner with sina chill after the guidance exam

call my dad and ask where they are

go back to makati

POSTED AT 12:05 AM

budzter

whaaaapaaaakkk! wahooo! whoooppeee!!!

 

flight's at 10. haha.

 

weird noh, i'm actually hyped up about going home!

 

or maybe i just had too toooo much coffee.

 

maybe. hehe.

 

i missed yan's birthday cause daddy was here, but then i'll make it up to her nalang this weekend...

 

hmmmn.

 

 

hmmmn.

 

hmmn. i miss my kuya! haha.

 

 

and i'm buying a guitar. hah. sana tuloy. sana.

 

 

i hope this trip would be well worth it. i'm sitting out on a shooting compe and the ARPT Orsem for this, so... yeah.

 

 

hayy., i'm gonna miss me dormies cause i won't be seein them for 4 days., awww. haha. *sob*. 

POSTED AT 10:31 PM

budzter

nothing like good food, bottomless lemonade, a few smokes, a round of time crisis and that dance thingy. and of course, good friends. good, clean fun with no alcohol involved. til next time guys! muwazshs.

 

...of course i would've liked it better if we had a round of beer to go with it, but, there will be other times.

 

i've had a killer week. pffft. i dint get to stay at home AT ALL, always rushing here and there, calling so and so... and next week will be hell-er.

and the weekend isn't gonna help. haah! nah-uhhh...

 

tomorrow i'll be going on that dreaded blind date. UGH at theo. boo. but hey, let's get this over with.

 

but the fact that i'll be meeting someone i literally know nothing about (save for his FIRST NAME and his celphone number) is still freaking me out.)

there are only two possible concerns: (1) i don't like him and (2) he doesn't like me.

if he's cute, then it's the second one i'm worried about. if he's not cute, then the first one might be a problem. but of course i'm being shallow again. and this is one date, so why am i so worried? if the worst case scenario occurs, then we could just shut each other out and forget the blind date ever happened.. Ateneo is a big school, i probably won't see him again anyway. hah.

of course i'm still hoping it goes well so i can write a decent paper.

 

sunday, we'll be going on the first part of that imersion trip, also for theo. we're going to meet for the first time the folks who would act as our "foster parents" for the second part of the imersion. (2 night stay at their place. whapakk)

 

theo is proving to be such a hassle. i still have a pile of theo readings untouched, which is why i've cut 3 succeeding sessions of it. i'm afraid of those "theological conversations" cause freaked out, paranoid me is so afraid of making a fool of myself in front of the class. i probably deserve whatever humiliation i get if i'm called for one of those - who chose NOT to read anyway?

 

i promise to read some on monday... after i go to OSA and OAS to have my project's venue approved, AND following up those sponsors and those schools with stacy.

 

BTW, thanks stacy! you've been of greattttt help with all this org stuff! BS Org, that's our major! haha.

 

 

awww! but i'm not forgoing whatever's left of my so called "social life" (if i have one.. haha). i still have time for my dormies, and my blockmates! and of course, the yosi sessions with frans. (muwazshs!!)

 

just last night, jen and i had a "pamimilosopiya" session, where we "objectified" our selves and looked at how everything we've been doing would affect the courses of our lives (we had an attempt at profundity, again). i miss times like those - just the two of us and marlboro/dunhills talking about life and expressing our thoughts and observations on people (not chismis, we keep them as "intellectual" as we can. haha.)

 

i still believe that the motivation for everything a person does and the force that pushes them to be what they are, comes from one source - maybe an event in someone's life, or whatever.... okay let's not get to that.

 

HOPEFULLY, i get to see my blockmates tomorrow night, and on wednesday too.

 

hayyy i have to get back on track. i have to find my priorities and set them straight. i can't be a scatter brain for so long.

 

what else is new?

 

haha.

 

nothing, really.

POSTED AT 10:35 PM

budzter

now i think i know how he felt.

 

you reach that point where you think you have nothing to lose and you just keep going.

 

but for some reason, i don't think it's worth it.

 

so why am i bothering myself with thoughts of ...........................

 

nevermind.

 

 

walang susi. hindi umaandar.

 

nakakoche pero walang pinapatunguhan...

 

goodluck sakin. whaaack.

POSTED AT 10:10 PM

budzter

picture me driving to eastwood with my groupmates, close to screaming "HASSLE NG THEO, BLIND DATE BLIND DATE PA! LECHE! ANO BA!!!"

you can dba? it is sooo me.

 

but... i changed my mind. okay lang pala. well, at least it went okay for me; gen and stacy weren't as lucky - stacy's date was amy's "boy", judd, so mejo laannnggg, lalo na since amy was there with karlo... so mejo sucky yung blind date for them. amy and judd ended up ditching the group, and stacy ended up dating karlo, which was fine, actually, since yun naman talaga dapat.

mej nakakaasar lang. basta yun.

 

gen's date naman, kinda freaky. i mean i thought it was clear to everyone that this was a one time blind date, just ONE required date, and it's "no strings attached" (well, if you wanna stay friends, up to you, pero don't expect anything MORE THAN FRIENDSHIP to come out of it agad.) somehow yung dating sa amin was that the guy was interested talaga kay gen, which is a big N-O since gen just started OFFICIALLY dating my cousin (CONGRATULATIONS!)

 

MY date went well. nice guy.. nice looking, (thank you ken for trying your best in finding someone with the right specs,... at ginawa ko namang computer/cellphone yung date ko na may specs) i dint get bored, although as expected mejo ilang at first and stuff, but wayyy better than i expected (then again, i kinda expected the worst, so yun)... so sobra siyang okay. sayang yung screaming ko on the way, and yung pagsstress ko over it the night before (read previous blog entries!). in the end i thanked him for changing my mind about blind dates. haha.

sooo Miguel, thank you ulit! i will see you around, and i look forward to bein friends with ya. (as if naman aabot sa kanya. wahaha)

 

 

* i said before, there were only two possibilities, i dint realize there was a third one - that i'd actually have a great time, or at the very least, have some fun.

 

 

thank you groupmates for being so patient with me. haha

 

 

 

 

okay next stop, immersion.CAN I JUST SAY UGH. UGH. TRIPLE UGH!!!

 

hatefulllll!!!

 

imagine, no kuryente, 1dipax2 dipas yun dimension ng BARONGBARONG na mukhang tree house, LABANDERA, so we're supposed to help her with the labada, 2 kids! 17 and 11 years old!!!!! MEJO LAAANNNGGG!!! MATUTULOG AKONG NAKATAYO!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

i MIGHT not get out of it alive, BUT i will try, although the urge to back out is really strrrooonggg and i find the idea extreeeemeeellyyy tempting, I WILL PROVE TO MYSELF THAT I CAN DO IT (i might eat my words tho, ipagdasal nyo ako!)

 

btw, there's no banyo, so Gen and I MIGHT not take a shower for THREE DAYS!!!

hug nyoko sa sunday ha! nyahahahhaahahhahahahhah nyahahahahahhahahahaah....................

 

by the way, there's kind of a safety ish kanina sa group. mejo lang, predators!!! wahapak! scaarryyy....

 

KAYANIN. KAKAYANIN!

 

i mean after all i expected the blind date to be bad, and it turned out okay, right??

NO, wrong, 2 nights at a squatter's area IS NOTHING like a blind date.

 

poooof.

 

Dr. TEJIDO, THIS BETTER BE WORTH IT!

POSTED AT 06:57 PM

budzter

stupid immersion. stupid stupid immersion.

 

now mum won't let me go.

 

cause of the health risks, etc.

 

and i don't even want to insist on going.

 

 

kasi namaaannn....

sir dint describe it like that eh..... bakit ganun yung inabot namin?

boooo.

 

POSTED AT 09:57 AM

budzter

okay, so i'm going. pumayag na si mommy, basta kasama si karlo, and since pumayag na si karlo sumama, eh di, okay.

 

just think of this as bonding with karlo and gen.

 

besides, it's not raining anymore, how bad could it be, really?

 

 

and they sounded so excited to accomodate us when we called them last night.

 

 

so go na toh.

 

go na.

go na.

 

kayanin na.,

 

[kailangan ko ma psych up for this. game na game na game na. stay hyper at least til sunday. okay? okay. bring it on.]