POSTED AT 07:48 PM

budzter

congratulate me, peeps. i made it to the airport and back in one piecE! and hannah's staying over for a few days until she finds a place in UP... kewlness. we're gona have lotsa fun fun funnn!!! well that is, if school doesn't get in the way...

 

i was thinking pala, i might not leave ARPT nalang. but i'll have to train din para hindi ako useless member. training means less smoking para may stamina. hindi na hihingal hingal and all...

 

plus my asthma's coming back so i really gotta cut down.

 

 

bbbbut I DON'T WANNA. sarrrap ng yosi ehhh

 

 

pero mashado maraming consequences.

 

 

argh. back to ARPT. i thought it over. i still love shooting. i still love the team. too too much. i don't wanna leave it.  not for yosi, not for katamaran, not for school, not for other orgs, not for anything.

 

so sige, this week, i promise to train for at least an hour a day. promise. [promise to self yan ah! i shouldn't let myself down!]

 

garrh...

POSTED AT 11:33 PM

budzter

hayyy sabi na nga ba twas tooooo good to be true...

 

and the bliss dint even last an entire day. hmmph

 

ohwel caramel.

 

at least twas there...

 

 

 

POSTED AT 06:48 PM

budzter

ayown. 2 things. i have a new roommate - incoming freshie sa ateneo from bohol.

mixed feelings - people from bohol are generally nice and well uhmm i dunno no comment. lalo na since freshman pa, pwedeng pwede impluwensyahan - by the end of first sem she'll know how to smoke na din. wahaha am i evil or what? and since freshman, pwedeng pwede din i-bully. dba dba dba?  bwahahahaa ... pero of course naiiisip ko din i should be nice the way sammy and anna were nice to me before, and naisip ko din, freshman toh, so dapat din alagaan, the way sammy made me alaga before - she taught me to cook and to survive in school, she influenced my study habits and shit like that, most of my friends nung first year were people she introduced me to, she brought me with her to the gym  and she was really like a big sister or something.  so i should pay it forward, right? right.

 

but she should be able to sleep with music blasting from the speakers and with the lights on cause that's how i usually sleep. she should be able to tolerate ingay and kalat. she should be capable of listening to me rant and all. and dapat magaling din sha magkwento. at dapat may sense yun kwento nya.

dapat magyoyosi sya with me sa room (wahahaha naghahanap ng kasamang mag break ng rules!) and dapat sa pc ko pa rin naka kabit yun internet, unless ipapa lan namin yun net.

dapat papayag siya imove around yung stuff sa room - kami magaarrange dapat - fair yun pagkahati.

and higit sa lahat, dapat wala siyang boyfriend, at kung meron man, di nya dapat papasukin sa room - cause anna and rouelle were icky before and i hated na they were snuggling up sa isang bed habang tulog ako sa kabilang bed. iiickk..

 

so ayown, may roommate na ko next sem - no more inuman sessions in my room! sorry guys.

 

2nd, may isa pang gurl na nagcheckout ng rooms here. grabeh ang hoooottt nya! natibo kami ni jen! as in yun hot na mapapalingun ka at mapapatigil ka when she walks in sa room!!! sana she moves in with jen para dormie namin sha! she looks uuuber kewl and she was suuperduuuper nice pa!!! and she sounded smart too! ayown, we wanna be like her!!! wahhahaha... and she should make a nice "ate" especially since ate coline's leaving na - wala na kaming fashion/love guru... wahhh

 

ayown. yun lang. haha.

 

 

went out pala with hannah and chic last night - eastwood til 5 am. tallllkkk all night. twas nice.. pero i did something stupid - naiwan ko license ko sa dorm! who's stupid? i am. wayyyy stupid.

just a thought...
POSTED AT 12:44 AM

budzter

remember when i took that detox off cigs and alcohol a few months back? maybe i should do that again... with guys this time?

 

well not guys, really, but what if i forbid myself from looking at a guy in that way for like a week - bawal crush, bawal loooong text conversations with guys, bawal ym/text/personal conversations with crushes/ex-almost-boyfriends/etc.... and shit like that..? bawal kilig moments and all, in short parang bawal lumapit sa lalake, or kahit mag-isip man lang..?

 

wahaha crazy thought....

 

as if naman napipigilan ang mga ganyan, right?

 

supressed emotions would only haunt you later on, right? right.

 

i'll get off cigs and alcohol nalang ulit. hihihi.

 

yuck ang joke ko talaga.

 

pero malay natin. hmmn...

 

wala. ang labo ko.

POSTED AT 02:34 AM

budzter

by yen and me. in reaction to a conversation i had earlier with a friend.

 

 

HINDI MAPIPILIT ANG AYAW. AND HINDI TALAGA DAPAT SABIHIN SA KANYA 

he doesn't deserve the pressure that knowing he is liked would put on him. being on the "rejecting" side is not fun at all - it hurts din to see that you're hurting someone. if he doesn't feel the same way, the "make the first move" thing is out of the question - he doesn't have to go through that. he shouldn't go through that.

maybe he's loved/liked too much. just struggle with trying to get over him rather than pilitin siya.

 

 

kasi ganito yan,

 

kailangan may intersection yun graphs ng function nyo. kung wala, kailangan mong magrisk na tumawid ng asymptote (which is almost,if not, impossible) and maging undefined. gets? gets. pero kung kayong dalawa ay nasa parehong side ng asymptote, pwede. eh since wala nga kami sa same plane, asa pa akong makatawid, dba? at hindi magbabago yun whether sabihin ko sa kanya or not. gets? gets.

 

sabi na mag calculus nalang eh! hahaha...

POSTED AT 12:53 AM

budzter

no comments allowed on this one. just read. and leave whatever you read here. okay? okay.

 

*warning* i just came from jack's loft. you know what i DO in jack's loft. so take this with a grain of salt, willya?

ayoko sa epal. get a life. pero that's not the point. you're not my friend. boo you. [and this isn't about you, or you, OR YOU!, mga tanginang pakshet kayo mamaya nyan kung ano ano nanaman mga i-guess/overanalyze/whatever nyo]

 

anyway, damage was done cause of a petty blog entry na ginawang controversial ng mga <insert foul adjective here> na tao.

 

i'd like to think naayos na siya. i'll post a longer entry on that when i'm sober-er. i actually have one already but i have to re-re-review it, lest it cause another ........ nevermind.

 

 

 

OH BY THE WAY. i was baaaddd the last time i was drunk. i said a lot of stuff i really shouldn't have said. i realize now kung gano ako ka gago paglasing [kahit nga di lasing, wehehhh]. sooooo.... PEOPLE KUNG MAY NASABI AKO SA INYO NA SUPER NAKAKASAKIT HABANG DRUNK AKO, TEXT NYOKO, PAGUSAPAN NATIN. BAKA LIBRE KO PA KAYO KUNG SUPER MAGUILTY AKO, okay? okay.

 

gawwwd there are sooooo many things i need to explain na palaaaaa... i know i've always been hard to understand/tolerate/whatever (ask hannah, she'd know.) whether i'm sober or drunk.

 

but. yeah. whatever.

 

 

friends come and friends go, gots tuh know when tuh leave them behind, OR get left behind, or take separate paths, or however the fuck you'd like to put it. and looks like the time is NOW. ang sad. pero what the hell. buhbye. buhbye now.

 

 

oh and this little bloggie over here has made me pahamak several times already. 'zit about time to make a new one??? hmmmn.. hmmmmn... hmmmmmmmmmmmn...?

 

 

AND. one. last. final. note.

 

tantadadantadaaaannnn...

 

 

NO BOYS ALLOWED! weh.

 

aylabyoo jen and sannds and wengweng and jack's loft. till saturday ulit, aright? muwazshs.

Reading: stupid text messages from stupid people
Listening to: the sound of the keyboard
Watching: nothing. the blinking cursor.
Feeling: gaaaarrrrrhhhh.........

POSTED AT 01:02 AM

budzter

siguro may mga taong kapag nasa mas mataas na plane or kahit kapantay lang pero iba kesa sayo [not necessarily superior or inferior, basta different lang], hindi talaga kau magkakaintindihan, kahit anong pageexplain pa gagawin nyo to each other. dbaaa.....  or stubborn lang ba talaga ako? hmmmn

 

Feeling: wag kang epal! okay? ALIS

POSTED AT 01:43 PM

budzter

ayown happy kami ni jen kasi nagreserve na si hotgurl., yeyyyy happpyyy! new dormiee!!! wahahaha

 

oii di kami tibo ah..

 

hmmn kelan kaya sya magmmove in? wahahaha

 

anyyywayyy. ayown, guys pag nag move na siya pwede ko na siya ipicture for you! wahahah.

POSTED AT 01:51 PM

budzter

isa pa, last. D3 peepolll... sabi ni mark movie dawww! free kayo sabado? MM andito ka daw that time? tapos sannds dapaaat kasama ka! taraaa labas tayow. text nyoko. aright??

 

ron, ja, francine, ralph, and kung sino pa andito!  tell me if you're free. dapat sama kayo namimiss ko na kayo! okay????

POSTED AT 07:07 PM

budzter

who's the number one duwag? me!

 

dati ko pang dream na tumalon from an airplane, with a parachute, that is. hindi ko pa gusto mamatay noh, maya pa yun.

 

anyway.. tapos dati ko pa din dream mag bunjee jump tsaka nung nasa beach kami kinukulit ko parents ko na magparasailing akio..

 

 

pero judging from how pathetic i was kanina, mamaya na siguro yan

 

dapat kasi mag wall climbing kami ni jen sa power-up kanina after shooting sa range. kasoooo... mashado sha mahal altho okay lang kun g masusulit namin but since pareho kami pagod, so not nalang.

 

so we decided to go to qc circle instead. wala fresh air, biking, skating, chill. wala lang, kesa magkulong sa dorm namin (na nagpapanggap na dorm kasi oven talaga siya)

 

tapos nadecide namin mag rapel (spell??) nalang.

 

so yun, nagrapel nga kami. pero di ako makabitaw sa railing thingy!! grabeh ang scardy cat ko! tapos when i was finally there, ang bagaaal ko pa baba! nakakahiyaaaa!! but owell..

 

si jen naman tangna di mapigil, paulitulit umakyat, nag ala mission impossible ekek pa, at pinanood ko lang sya...

 

sooooo... i paid 80 pesos para bumaba sa wall ng dalawang beses... pathetic, yes? scaredy caaatt....

 

perrroooo plan namin to go like twice a week for summer tapos dapat by the end of summer nag MI-ish na rin ako... wahahaha. ASAAAA pero mukha shang fun, di lang talaga ako maka bitaw pag andun nako...

 

ayown.  yun lang. end of story. hahaha weirdo freak

POSTED AT 07:30 PM

budzter

i just got home from hanging sa podium with coline and jen. i lurve it. well, not podium, but banana leaf curry place.... yummmmyyyy... yey foooodddd....

 

AND i still want that top from people, bahala na if it.... shows too much? bwahahhh..

 

anywayyyy.

 

 train ako dapat kanina but since sabi ni coach di daw sya pupunta so bukas nalang. ayown. tapos habang nagyym ako, biglang nag brownout. imagine yung oven-na-nagpapanggap-na-dorm kapag brownout... - HOT AS HELL... soooo.. pinilit ko sila maligo para alis kami kaya ayun. i superduper lurve.

 

can i just say, as expected, i aaabsoluuteeely luuurrve my car. lurve lurve lurve. times like these na lalo ko siyang naaappreciate...

 

BUT THEN, come to think of it, kung wala yung car at nag brownout, siguro nag lib ako.. so uhmm. yeah. whatever. ",

 

thazzit. i shall do my spanish homework.

 

POSTED AT 01:14 PM

budzter

may15 - spanish lt2

may24 - spanish orals

may25 - spanish lt3

may29 - spanish finals

 

may 19 - fil lt2 (2 lts lang daw!?!)

 

may21 - shooting thingy

 

may12pm - fil play

may13am - drive hannah to airport

may13pm - go out with sannds?

may15pm - national museum with spanish classmates

may16pm - rapeling/wallclimbing with jen?

may18pm - rapeling/wallclimbing ulit with jen?

may19 -  da vinci code!!!

may19 - mm's party daw

may20 - rovi's party (am i going?? who's going?)

 

i wanna go to the beach. but when???? grrr...

 

 

june1 - i'm going to tacloban

 

i have to schedule

=> hanging out with d3

=> inuman with sina chin and faith and whoever else - gurls thingy... (labo na toh)

=> going back to moro (ASA PA AKO)

=> going to ATC. just because. haha. or go with sammy to las pinas. (labo pa rin toh)

=> hanging out with sina sammy.. i miss youuu. busy bee.

=> shoppiiingg.

=> revising my project proposal and budget proposal for lex

=> finding out whether i got that project head thingy for aea

 

 

 

ang ikli ng summer. sobraaah

 

tapos i have a lot of work waiting for me sa tacloban pa. plus i have to fit going to cebu to see my mommy sa sched.

 

BUT i have to pass fil and spanish first. grr

POSTED AT 01:43 AM

budzter

hung out with sannds at jack's after the required play for fil, tapos ran into chin doon. kewlnesssss.. she was with val and other blockmates ata. tapos after jack's sannds and i went videoke (routine, much?) tapos sumunod si chin tsaka si apags.

 

funfun. eastwood is really a biiiiggg part of my life., lalo na jack's loft. home namin ni sannds yun. ang kewl din kasi ngayon ko lang talagang nakatambay sina chin and apags. mej bored na din kami ni sannds nun eh, antok na, binuhay nila kami! wahahahha

 

 

oh btw, YOU, yes you. i'm glad we're friends! i  dint think i could be this comfortable with you pero i am, so - happppyyy. right pare? i know, right? hahaha

 

yipeedoodles. til next time guys!

 

oh nga pala, ashtig yun play.... galing ng pagkadirect ni sir de guzman tsaka nung acting ni sir tenorio. ashtig.

POSTED AT 07:25 PM

budzter

yippeeeedoodles. di nako duwag! hahaha

 

jen and i went rapeling again and i made it this time! i mean hindi nako scaredy cat!! and then i did that thing na you're hanging, baleh malayo ka sa wall and then dahan dahan ka bababa and i did that lizard thing din na you go upside down and then you crawl down the wall... yipeeedoodleS! i'm getting the hang of this! i'll go again one time this week. wahoooosh.

 

ahahhahaa this is wayyyy better than spending the afternoon bored and smoking in the dorm! wahhhoooo.. funfunfun!

 

 

thanks ryan for being an extremely patient instructor. and to the other kampo uno guys! hahahaha. ayown...

 

i realized pala na i shouldn't go wall climbing kasi if my fingers get toooo strong, hindi na maayos feel ko sa trigger pag nagshshoot... soooo... i'll stick with rapeling na muna siguro.... but i'll still try wall climbing. they put up daw a wall sa UP which is better kasi mas near.

 

tsakaaaa nga pala, naginvite sina ryan na mag mountain climbing sa may27-28 and i wanna go. thing is jen will be in vigan by then and i dun wanna go alone with a bunch of guys i barely know.... sooooo hahanap ako kasama, sinong game?? hahaha... pag wala eh di nevermind nalang. hahaa

POSTED AT 05:05 PM

budzter

uncle borrowed my car. it's only for a day. it's okay lang, dba? dba? it's okay. it's oookaaayyy... it's o.. fine it's not. but what the hell. oh well...

 

 

i pray that nothing bad happens to them and to the car while they're out. and i hope nothing happens to my two teddies sa likod - si chocolate and si vanilla. pweh. pag si vanilla umitim patay sila sakin. hmmph. hindi marereplace yun. pffft. owell..

POSTED AT 11:53 PM

budzter

here i go again.

 

how much should you trust a person?

how can you tell whether you should allow yourself to get attached to a person or not?

 

hirap na. mamaya nyan when i feel it's safe to take down the cement walls, hindi pala safe, and tanga nanaman ako.

 

pero come to think of it di na nga kasing tibay yun walls ngayon than before eh. hindi na naman ako like before na sobrang few pero sobrang cloooossseee na friends na sobrang pili. it's different now. way different.

 

 

how do you know when it's time to let someone into your life? (hoi hindi boyprend, yun prend na mahal mo... gets?gets.) when it's safe to get attached to the person and when it's safe to really trust a person? kung sino dapat mo ilagay sa friends for keeps list and kung sino ang alam mong iiwan ka lang naman after a while.

 

play it by ear. kaso. bano ako dyan eh.

 

ahayyy.... keep the walls up nalang siguro. stay a rock lest you get yourself hurt again. no puedo.

mi vida hay mucho dolor. i don't want any more.

 

 

i wanna go home. i don't like it here. not anymore.

POSTED AT 01:44 PM

budzter

i tell you that's where i'm drawing the line. if you don't stop that i'm cutting you off.

 

yeah. whatever, dad. i'd like to see you do that. what's fucking taking you so long?

 

game. so i can watch you rot in that hell you made for yourself. hah.

 

 

i thought i was wrong for hating you. now i realize i was right all along.

 

 

i want my mommy.

POSTED AT 01:22 PM

budzter

yipeyyy. my first shooting medal.haha.. 2nd place. happy.

 

ick. long test in fil tomorrow. plus spanish composition, for tomorrow din. fil paper plus dalagang bukid summary for tuesday plus spanish orals (tuesday or wednesday, wala pang definite sched) TAPOS Lex project and budget proposal for friday. UH OH. TAPOS may AEA project proposal pa, for saturday. UH OHHHHH....

 

 

guys! inuman tuesday night, drew's, libre ko. hhihihi...

 

tapos kung sino gusto mag rapel sa wednesday afternoon, text nyoko. gusto ko na mag rapel ulit eh, kahit di pa nawawala yun rope/sling burn sa may back ko. wahaha.

 

ayun, trying to be a busy beee.. hahaha...

 

BTW, going on another roadtrip - further north this time. welll plans palang, Laoag daw sabi ng cousin ko. malabo pero sana tuloy. watdahel.

 

okei tha's about it, dinner time. ciao! (or dapat ba, CHOW???) hahah

POSTED AT 03:22 PM

budzter

i'm tired. why? i dunno. i dun wanna go to skewl. no no no no no. wahhhhhh

 

 

hahaha regression. hahaha.

POSTED AT 08:12 PM

budzter

ayown.gumaganti na sakin ang lahat ng ginawa ko sa summer. i dint get sick after going home, going back and forth sa beach, travelling for several days straight, tapos school kaagad, then all the inuman and yosis...

it's payback time, says my body.

 

sniffles. pweh. para akong ngongong asong bulol na tumatahol.. i want my mommy.

scratch that. no i don't.

 

last two days of school then freeeedoommmm....

 

well not really.

 

finals week pa, pero pfft. bahala na yun. hmmp.

 

i have spanish orals tomorrow. and alam ko na kung sino proctor ko ---- tadaaaaa the menoposal gay bitch himself, SENOR PRADO

 

well hindi pa sure pero sabi ni senor capili malaki daw ang chance na sya. howlehcamoteh! pagdasal nyoko tonight! gahh..

 

okei i have a spanish album to make and 2 filipino short stories to read. sana hindi natatapos ang araw. haha.

 

 

nakita kita kanina. napalundag nanaman ako sa tuwa. kung bakit ganyan na lamang ang epekto mo sakin.

pero pakshit ka, lumingon ka man lang dito. at kahit sa isang glance lamang ay mapapasaya mo na ako.

POSTED AT 10:20 PM

budzter

said too much. AGAIN.

 

 

WHEN WILL I EVERRRR LEARN???!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?

 

 

i should leave my heart and my mind behind the next time i go to an inuman. noh? hayyy....

 

 

 

when will this end? when will ALL THIS end?

 

parang walang katapusang pagdurusa.

pati yung mga sakit na dating pang naibaon ay naibuklat.

 

ANG SAKIT.

 

 

 

 

pero no regrets. i trust naman the people na kasama ko. i just hope i was right in doing so. may memories lang na nagresurface. yun lang. bow.

 

POSTED AT 04:12 AM

budzter

the perfect end to an annoyingly busy week!

1. la fiesta for spanish class. i love my groupmates! Art, Kaloy, Pauline and Em!!! :D tapos smocket with kaloy and pauline after the last spanish class!!! tapos tapos tapos menopausal gay bitch gave me a B+ sa orals!! so no spanish finals for meeee!!! yipeedoodles.

2. had a yosi date with frans and sannds sa SOM smocket!!! tapos we got hungry/thirsty, we went drive through sa mcdo (fries lang!) then parked sa moro... talked and talked and talked and talked. i labyoo li'l bitch! we super miss you na! haha then frans had class.

3. eastwood with sannds, dapat to watch da vinci code pero 4 pa yun showing. so we were like "hmmn,.. what do we do...." sabay "wanna bubba gump?" soooo... we went off to greenbelt. shrimps shrimps shrimps shrimps!!!!!!!!!!

4. after the run across america sampler platter (usual order!! hahahaha) we watched na Da Vinci Code. and can i just say, i was so fucking disappointed! bad bad badddddddd movie!!! parang inattempt isiksik  ang marami sa nangyari sa book na hindi na nila inayos, or something, ewan ko, but i got pissed sa movie. haha. owell, sayang 150! tsk tsk.

5. after the movie, we went to.... MAX BRENNER!!!! <3<3 Chocolates=love!=a humungous smile on my face! italian thick, dark. yummeh!

6. we walked around muna after that max brenner cup, tapos we went to eastwood (around 9:30/10ish na) then ate AGAIN at fazoli's.

7. tapossss, went to sannds' place, chill lang, played the guitar blahblahblah,  i stayed til 11:30 then went home na... as soon as i got home, turned on my pc, and fell asleep. hahaha. great,. sorry no project proposal yet. boo.

 

ayown...

 

diane: OMG, OMG, we made the wrong right turn, right???

sannds: right! but it's okay, just make the right left turn then the right right turn, right?

diane: right.

 

para nanaman tong we're the same feathers!!! swear, daming sabaw moments in my car! hahaha.

 

i know, right? right. totally, right?

 

 

hahahah

 

sannds+shrimps+maxbrenner = happy diane! hahahaha.

 

 

ayowwwn.

 

 

 

 

 

oh, about the previous entry, mejo lang, exagg siya! dba? andrama putangina! haha anywayyyy ayown, one more lasheng entry!

dapat talaga sa chocolates na lang ako "nagpapakalasing", noh????  no more alcohol!!! no more! no more inuman!!! hahaha

RIGHT!!!!! who exactly am i kidding!!!!

 

 

oooh, btw btw, bat parang ang daming nagbabasa ng blog ko? hmmn? hmmn? hmmn? SAN NYO NAKUHA YUNG URL? HA?? SHTALKER! hahaha

 

i'm happy, i had a really nice day, without drinking!!! hahaha,.

 

 

hmmn.... guess datzit.

 

OOOOH LAST!!! sannds' hottie [li'l] brother is leaving for the states., prolly for good. NOOOOOOOOO!!!   [sannds' is gonna hate me for this, i swear!! hahaha] no more hottttieeee!!! awwww. saaad. HINDI NAKO MAGSSLEEP OVER SA INYO!! JOKE LANG!!! hahahahah

 

nga pala birthday ng daddy ko kahapon, tapos today ko lang ginreet. blech. accoding to him he was real sad daw cause he thought his baby forgot to greet him. right. whatever.

 

ayun. i wanna go to the beach

 

but i gotta pass fil first. i'm frikin faiiiling! i think i fucked up allllll those quizzes! tapos 1st long, okay pa, 2nd, SABLAY!!!! but! marami namang nag score lower than me! like generally mabababa yun mga scores ng mga classmates ko.... sooo... loser pa rin ako, kasi D lang. hahahaha.

 

me gusta mas estudiar espanol que filipino. por que espanol es muy muy interesante. wahahahaha.

POSTED AT 07:57 PM

budzter

i wanna go to the beach!!!

 

 

i wanna wanna wanna wanna!

 

 

who's with me??? GUYS??? GUYSSSSSS??? HELLOOOOOO????? SANNNDS????

POSTED AT 02:01 PM

budzter

yipppeyyy no more filipino foreverrrr!!!!! well if i passed, that is.

 

the end of summer classes!! whoopdedooo!!!!

 

 

hmmmn i MIGHT go inuman with the team later.

i MIGHT go Dish with Viva later.

 

or i might just sleep. haha i'm drained.

 

arrrgh. tireddddd!!!!!

 

i wamymommy!!

 

 

oh btw, i have a handful of new friends cause of summer! spanish and fil classmates. syempre yun fil classmates kanina ko lang sila na friend dba... after one entire summer hahaha.

 

happeh.

 

hi guys! *wave*

 

shout out to those who read my blog pala! hahaha hi mondy! hi kenny! hahahaha.. topak nanaman o.

 

sabog. sabaw. hindi naman lasing. hahahahahahaha

 

i need sleeeeepppp!!!!really! i do! gudnight.

 

labo.

haha

haha

hahahah

POSTED AT 10:52 PM

budzter

went to a boring mall to aleviate boredom. how nice.

 

but seriously. you can only spend so much time in podium. haha

 

oi watch Failure to Launch. nice siya. shweeet. sama mo boyprend/gerlprend mo, kasi sobrang date movie sya.

 

sana gwapong guy nalang kasama ko. teeeheee.. joke lang stacy! muwazshs.

 

 

ayown. stacy's leaving na talaga!! happy for her, but sad kasi mi cuarta pandilla hay gen y yo nalang, byebye stacy....

 

i'll miss hanging at the caf withya! and studying at the lib! and stalking my crushes!! hahahaha....

 

ingat in UP aight? muwazshs.

POSTED AT 12:45 AM

budzter

you took my heart when you walked away.

 

i cried inside as i watched you go up those steps.

 

 

you've put it plain and simple.

 

you're just not into me.

 

 

 

 

but dammnit.

 

damnit.

 

 

i'm floating on cloud nine, yet a part of me burns in hell.

 

and it'll continue to burn.

 

 

and i'll LET it burn.

 

 

 

the sight of you walking away from me.

 

 

 

that last look at your back as you opened those doors.

 

 

 

 

and closed them.

 

 

as if shutting me out.

 

 

 

 

go ahead. i'll do just fine.

 

 

but let it be known,

 

 

than you will forever be a part of me.

 

a. part. of. me.

 

and tonight, the sound of your voice. your fingers strumming the guitar. the sound of your voice. the sound of your voice. the sound of your voice. your words. you, speaking to me. you and me. you and me. just you and me. and the night sky. and the music. the music that played in my head. on and on and on and on.

 

it doesn't matter how pathetically short the moment was.... it was there. you were there. you were there. you were there and that's enough.

 

 

i know i can't really say i love you.

or that i loved you.

 

 

my feelings for you remain unfathomed. even by me.

 

 

but....

 

i'd have to say.

 

dreams do come true. and you're one of those dreams.

 

 

smile once more.

sing once more.

speak once more.

 

 

so even for just a moment, i can say you were mine.

 

you were mine.

 

you became mine when for one brief moment, i had you all to myself.

 

you and me. you and me and the night sky.

 

 

 

 

and the music.

 

just

 

you and me.

 

 

and the night sky

 

 

and the music.

 

 

 

please do not read into things. if you wanna know, ask me. xp

POSTED AT 02:27 AM

budzter

i gotta learn how to do things alone. pfft. bummmmer.

POSTED AT 02:42 AM

budzter

if i stay

i get to spend time with my friends (altho most of them are bussssyyy.. pffft.)

i get to train.

i get to  smoke, drink.

i get to rapel.

i get to shop.

i get to see............................

anyway 3 days lang naman ako alone. dba?

 

 

if i go

i get to spend time with my friends (my highschool friends)

i get to go to the beach! to the farm! to the gun club!

i get to see my daddy (but do i wanna see him??)

i get to go to work (i love work! boss budz! hahaha)

*'s there. i'd have to admit, i miss the guy.

and i'm never alone. i always find someone.

 

 

 

so stay here? or go?

 

stay here or go?

 

decisions decisions...

 

 

can i get through 3 days without my CLOOOOOSSSESSSST friends?

 

 

 

i gotta learn how to do things alone. really. i do.