Entries for December, 2005
December 1st, 2005
what you see and what you hear, when you leave, leave it here.. POSTED AT 02:48 PM OR ELSE
another long day with the annoyingly scattered breaks. and then i find myself alone again - am i turning back into my old loner-antisocial self? (yeah right, as if i went through that phase!)
anyhoo, can't wait till 4:30, when ecomath is over and i can go watch chicken little with sannds. <bailaheeeeee!> suupper pissed i didn't get to see mr. machong pangit today, but what the hell. so what? hehehe like i said to the guidance person, my life doesn't revolve around that. (or does it?)
hmmn. i saw ralph mark and trina this morning and they told me they were going to quezon province next weekend for this theo project and i so want to go. roadtrip! but then again it's just gonna be mark ralph and ja... hmmn. if only i could get someone else to go... i know my mom wouldn't let me go with three guys!
hayy...
anyway, random updates.
accounting is becoming less and less tedious. i guess i'm getting the hang of it, huh?
oh and i'm beginning to lose myself again. you know how you don't know yourself anymore? or you find yourself changing and you're no longer sure where/what exactly you are at the moment? now's one of those times.
i've been spending more and more time at the lib lately, and less at the range. (less time at the range IS a BIT expected especially since coach isn't there and... let's just say things are different without him.. aww missya coachie!) but the lib bit is the one that gets me. can you believe this? after every class i go "where are you guys going? wanna lib?" talk about GEEEK! oh yeah, and i've been studying (contrary to my old habit of going to the lib for the aircon and taking uber long naps at the filipiniana section)! ahh yes. visible signs of gen's influence! (mare! lakas ng powers mo!)
i'm enjoying (and hating) history more and more. (inconsistent? me? definitely!) i love the lectures, they're all so much fun. but then i think i've failed two quizzes. (see, diane, notes are written to be read. not to be stuffed in a brown bag labeled "history stuff"
there.
hmmn. i've been spending a lot of quality time with my dormies lately. tita florence and tito florence put a sort of sala set outside so we now have a new tambayan. last night was so funny - jen, sandy and i were smoking while i was having cofee and then coline and maan joined us also. (say that again? 11:00 curfew? okei, we'll party inside then!) we were even talking about turning up the radio and speakers in coline's car so we could really "party". next time guys, we'll have drinks drinks and more drinks so we could all get drunk! oh and we can also move the cars around so as to completely disrupt the gremlin's sleep! hihihi (BASTOS!!!)
hmmn.by the way, i have been seeing the extreme differences between people. from the study habits to getting things done to ideals and principles, to the ideas on what's cool, what's hot and what's not. to the opinions... it's funny how extremely different people can get along so well. hehe. weird, eh? but what the hey. happy!
aack. can i just share? remember how i wrote that short entry on how my dad wanted to read my blog and all? well now he buzzes me on YM. how freaking weird is that? (see... my dad and i, we're close, but not THAT close. i mean i'd die if he sees all my silly stat msgs and my entries on boys plus pa that i'm smoking - noNOnoNO he can't know that.
but someone thinks that's sweet - having your dad want to be close to you and all. i think what gets me pissed is that we he never really gave a shit what i did before and then when he and my mum split up all of a sudden he's all "how's my li'l babyyy". i'm the only one who talks to him now - my brothers, well they weren't really big on talking/opening up to our parents.. and my mom. well go figure. so there, i pity him. i'm the only one he "has" (or at least he thinks he has. if we're made to choose sides, material stuff aside, i'd pick my mum. consider me an ingrate, but it's just like that. there are some things he'd never understand, nor has he ever tried to understand. ugh.)
sabi na nga ba nakakasama sakin mag-isip eh. ano bah! howell. shut me up.
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December 6th, 2005
POSTED AT 09:33 PM hmn. updates updates..
been a while na, sort of noh? i was home for the weekend and had a rad time with my cousins and their cousins as well. but more on that later, i gotta get something outta my head first.
nakita kita kanina. kasama mo siya. dati ko pa namang alam eh. kahit di mo pa inaamin/kinekwento sakin. alam ko may reason dun sa pag disappear mo sa buhay ko ng dalawang buwan. alam ko siya yun. panalo siya. alam ko na yun.. kaso iba pa rin pala pag kaharap ko na kayo at nakikita ko kung gano kayo kasaya together.
anyway, glad that's out.
mum and i went with dayday and aunti binks to this party at her cousin's house and suppper fun nilang kasama. they all drink, they all smoke, but they're all really smart. i don't get why the blancos never really got along with them. then again, my dad's side always had trouble mingling with people outside of the clan. hayy nako. so yun. we were drinking and chilling lang. sad i couldn't stay too long - mama wanted to leave early and i dint have a car with me so nde ako pde magpaiwan. so there, we were home by 12. but okay din lang. suupper pig out over the weekend, exagg,. i think i gained a lot of weight in 3 days lang. ugh. oh well. guess it's back to starving myself. hehe. speaking of which, the dreaded fat composition test for pe101 is gonna be next week na. talk about major ugh. howell
watching Ja's band and mell's band perform tomorrow. whee. excited nako!! might be going with gen and stacy. but then pag nde, sabay nalang ako kina sannds (okay lanngg guyss???)
accounting exam on friday! major ugh. pressure! my mom wants to see me ace this one. ASA!! but what the hey, worth a try, right? all i have to do is work my ass off the day before then hold my breath, get it over with, then hope that things turn out fine. (did that make sense?) ay nako.
but seriously, i'm starting to love this. it's fun and there's this silly sense of fulfillment that you get when you arrive at the right answer. owwwkei. that's the geek in me talking. ay nako.
by the way, mr. machong pangit now goes by a new name - "ibang level crush". heheheh.
yun lang. bow.
by the way, loveee history!!! wheee |
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December 7th, 2005
POSTED AT 12:18 AM ooh almost forgot. my parents (yess both my parents, pero separately) called me kanina kasi they're worried daw na my bro is joining a frat. may cig burns daw kasi sa arm... they want me to talk to him. duuuh as if that'l help |
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December 8th, 2005
POSTED AT 12:42 AM whee. watched the volunteer's concert thingy with sannds. good job ja. i think it'd look better tho if you dint rape the mic stand too much. teehee.
chicken little was cute, but it was kinda sucky. like i told my friend, if you have dad issues, don't watch nalang. hehe
pigged out again. ate/drank at oyster boy. very bangag. hehe |
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December 8th, 2005
POSTED AT 01:08 AM ooh btw sanndra: di what do you want for christmas? anything!! (well kinda like that) di: anything? sanndra: yeap, anything! di: ****** in a box. |
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December 9th, 2005
POSTED AT 03:23 AM umaga na and i can't frikin sleep. this sucks. the thought of the exam is driving me insane. i need sleep! |
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December 10th, 2005
POSTED AT 11:23 AM ano nga ba talaga ang gusto kong mangyari? i don't know them both but i like them nonetheless. one more than the other. one for the past year na, the other just recently.
yung just recently guy, may chance. yung one year na medyo malabo. sabi nila kung gusto ko daw itong si just recently guy, kaya daw. kaso kaya ko ba? feeling ko forever ko pa ring iisipin yung possibilities with yung si one year na.
wha...? pati ako di ko gets eh. howell |
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December 10th, 2005
POSTED AT 10:53 PM wheee. congratulate me people. i took a jeepney to UP alone tapos umuulan at okay lang ako at inde ako nagreklamo. wheee.
alam ko malabo tsaka mababaw. pero ask jen.. she's proud of me! heheeh |
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December 12th, 2005
bold move. selling myself short. POSTED AT 03:03 AM ayun. sinunod ko advice ng friend ko. tinext ko nga. at 2:43 am. wow. very nice.
i know for a fact he's still up. i DON'T know why i even bothered texting him.
pag inde siya nagreply at all, then you're sure na, it dint mean anything to him and you're just being stupid. he wasn't as nice a guy as you thought. tsaka he doesn't want to be your friend either.
i also know for a fact that that's gonna get me real upset.
but then again i should've thought about that to begin with. before the message. before holding his hand. before the movie. before everything else. hah. sinong bobo? sinong tanga? di ba ako? haha. [hoi sa mga nagbabasa, mali iniisip nyo ah! haha] he's prolly not gonna reply. he prolly doesn't give a shit. he's prolly lying somewhere with a smug look on his face thinking "o, sino ngayon ang naghahabol?" then again even that would be better than him laughing at me, or worse, ignoring the entire thing.
am i not worth even just a thought? powtanginang shyet. self pity ampowta.
tangina. ang cheezy. wag na nga! heheheh there. selling myself short. |
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December 16th, 2005
POSTED AT 12:22 AM i give up. you can go on with your workaholic lifestyle for all i care.
meanwhile.
i shall concentrate more on my ibang level crush nalang. |
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December 16th, 2005
POSTED AT 11:07 PM ripped shoes. torn jeans. my lucky day indeed.
i so wanted to go caroling with them. but. if God doesn't want something to happen, he stops it talaga. i'm tamad na to retype the kwento so i'll just paste this from ym
leo blanco (12/16/2005 8:45:07 PM) : wats your kwento?
that was a ym conversation between me and my dad. and yes, i still tell my parents everything. haha.
what a day. what a day indeed. buti nalang madali lang yung psych exam so super good mood ako. ack. |
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December 20th, 2005
POSTED AT 01:38 AM lord help me. last battle for the year na toh. let's go history!!! wheee...
keep him out of my mind, please god. keep him out of my mind., |
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December 21st, 2005
POSTED AT 12:10 PM i found this on friendster. wala lang
HOW TO TELL IF A GUY LIKES A GIRL: |
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December 22nd, 2005
POSTED AT 05:46 AM d3 block party was kewl. kahit andaming kulang. kahit nalasing ako. kahit andami kong nahithit. go pa rin. i love you guys!!!
it's gonna be a while before my next post. i am going off to nowhere land in about 15 minutes. i will miss partying withya guys!!! muwazzsh,.
till next year!! *cheers*
oh yea. merry christas to y'all |
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December 26th, 2005
kakaibang christmas POSTED AT 07:22 PM before: dec24 7 pm light dinner 10 pm prepare for noche buena 12 mn noche buena dec25 1 am gifts!!! 2 am go to bed 8 am santa claus' gifts 10 am church 12 nn lunch 2 - 9 pm farm 10 pm back home 11 sleep.
that's how christmas used to be back in tacloban
this year tho was completely different. first off, we're all in cebu and second, the condo is being renovated so we're all staying at this cozy pension house...
dec 24 after a day at the mall we went to lolo's place... 7 pm dinner at waterfront - buffet!!! yum 10 pm church 11:30 pm gifts! dec 25 1 am sleep! 12 nn lunch at tita's place then the rest of the day, hang out lang...
it's different. i'm not saying it's bad. just different. but fun nonetheless. christmas together. hehe.
but the fun was short-lived. dad kasi. panira. grr.
i had my ticket changed., i'm not spending new year in tacloban after all....
anyhoo, that's it. kau? musta christmas nyo?
btw, *hugzzz* sa ibang level crush ko.. alam ko lonely christmas niya this year.. haha.
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kahit alam kong di nya naman mababasa toh. haha.December 30th, 2005
POSTED AT 01:30 AM stuff that totally suck -> being stuck between a rock and a very hard place -> being a guest in your own "home". and losing your real home -> being pushed into something you don't want to have anything to do with -> having no choice -> having to put up with people you don't really like -> NOT being myself... that just totally sucks. -> feeling the need to pretend to be something you're not -> eating an extremely delicious meal and then being reminded of how much calories they contain -> hangovers. ugh. -> being with my mum and my kuya alex -> marlboro lights gold. yuck.
stuff that totally rock -> tequila -> being with my mum and my kuya alex. yeah it's a love-hate relationship -> cash christmas presents. -> ******. kahit mukhang hindi talaga siya magiging akin. -> latin music -> accounting -> 3 inch stilettos when you don't have to walk n kilometers from the parking lot -> late night chat/telebabad sessions with people who matter -> capri menthol. hayyy...
i'll try to add more to the list later on. for now that's all i can think of. |
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