wala. wala. wala pa ring nangyayari...
POSTED AT 10:56 AM

budzter

 

*resolution: i WILL NOT... repeat.. WILL NOT even LOOK at another chinese guy for the next.... i dunno... 20 years??? especially those who are from extremely traditional chinese families.

no. hindi toh prejudice ek ek, i have nothing against the chinese and their culture, it's just that there are some things they do that i don't, and probably will never, understand so huwag na.. better na lumayo.

 

and in case you guys are wondering kung ano na type ko ngayon:

.... next time nalang.. lol. basta wala na yung matangkad maputi chinitohin craze ko. wahahahah...

 

 

anyhooo.. i'm back in manila... i guess i'd have to admit i kinda missed this place... all the husslebussle and the noise and all... yesterday while i was walking home from school i listened to the sweet music (music ampota. wakekekeke) of the jackhammers pounding against the concrete and the cars with their horns as the 5:00 pm traffic started to build up sa katipunan. Dang.. the sweet smell of smoke and dirt...oh and don't forget that film of dirt that forms over your skin after an entire day of walking outdoors.

 

talk about yech.! wahehehe... strange though. bad as it sounds, i DID miss this place. the people and all...

 

my schedule sucks. 7:30 everyday.!!! argh. but i think i'll survive. it'll just take some getting used to.. here's my sched.

 

mwf : 7:30-8:30 theo121 at K302 with this prof who's supposedly too young to be going through menopause but acts like she is. i don't like her at all.

11:30-12:30 math20 at seca123a with this "teacher" who just graduated from ateneo last march.

 

tth: 7:30-9:00 math20 at ctc103 with the same teacher.

9:00-10:30 SA21 at bel212 with the old prof who i used to tease to kuya migoy. the same prof who gave sam a D and rea a C.

12:00-1:30 Ec102 at CTC105 with mr. cielito habito. it's too big a class, so i dunno if i'd learn anything.

 

there are a few familiar faces i see in my classes. Leon, for example, is in my SA and Eco class. Rovi is in my SA class. Kate (classmate in math last year) is in my Theo class. oh and mitchell's gurl is in all my classes, except math (although i'm not sure if she's in my SA class. i think i saw her...)

i saw my crush (described as "machong pangit" yesterday. and, well, i still blame my extremely low grade in *** on my obsession on him. waheheheh...

 

hmmn. i think i'll survive this sem. i HOPE i'd survive this sem. i'm not sure about getting grades high enough to get my parents' trust though. but goddamnit, i WILL do my best. ahehehe...

 

i might start going bellydancing with sina sam by next week.

this is getting tiring...
POSTED AT 01:57 PM

budzter

 

whine NONE OF MY CLASSES ARE FUN! UHUHUU and i don't see anyone i know/would bother to know/have the guts to approach/WHATEVER  in ANY of my classes....

 

this sucks.

wahhhhhhh... huhuhu i miss my D3 blockmates!!!! i don't know ANYONE in F2... buti nalang we're always mixed with other blocks so it's easier to look for someone i know.

dang. it feels like PS1 again... heck all my classes now feel like PS1. it sucks. i feel like such a loser - sitting at the back and talking to no one, looking so tanga laughing at the prof by myself. (my math teacher has this liTHp which iTH THo funny. he alwayTH goeTH "any queTHtionTH... and i'm still not used to it that i still laugh. pero i'm alone so i look so stupid laughing sa back.)

anyway.. as those of you who know me well enough may have realized, i don't do well alone. i always need someone i know with me which makes my current... situation extremely annoying.

but hey! CHALLENGE TOH! wakeke. malay mo, makayanan ko.,.. hehehe. and i guess i'd have to remind myself that i met a lot of extremely nice people in PS1 because i was alone. i mean, if i had some blockmates with me, i'm pretty sure i wouldn't have bothered to get to know the rest of the people, which means i wouldn't have met those pol sci peeps (gino, and that other guy) and those lm ppl (missy, kyle, anna, jc, and that other guy na i forgot yung name) so i guess i shouldn't be all depressed about this YET.

 

harumph. this is pathetic, i know. i still don't know why i'm in economics. pero malay mo (ko/natin kung may nagbabasa man nito) may point din ang lahat ng toh evetually. we-ellllll... wish me luck.

hands off.
POSTED AT 10:47 PM

budzter

don't get me wrong, i am not extremely anti-social or anything like that, nor am i isolating myself and going through a state of depression - the stuff written here are mere products of immediate events which triggered emotions that i just had to let out. in the long run, they don't really matter.

that being said, to those who read this blog, please recognize that this is not an attempt at getting your sympathy and trying to help could, and most probably would, just make things worse. and it doesn't matter whether your intentions were good or otherwise, if i don't/didn't like what you do/did, i'd probably end up hating you anyway.

 

so please, read. but if you want to help, do so by NOT doing anything about it - i'll find my own way out, thank you very much.

one way ticket.
POSTED AT 08:48 AM

budzter

uwi na ako. now na.  nde na ako babalik.

 

weahaae. wish ko lang. inde pa ako ganun ka pissed off dito noh. but still. i wanna go home. kahit sandali lang. lalo na dahil maraming ek ek ngayon sa tacloban. dba dba?

 

btwe, maupay nga patron ha iyo ngatanan dda. wahehe.

rant rant rant... labo...
POSTED AT 10:40 PM

budzter

pagod na ako. wala naman akong ginawa.

 

slept most of the day... parents are in cebu buying my brother a palm thingy whatzit. then my dad went "he needs all the support right now. he's under a lot of pressure blahblahblah".

 

yeah. as if.

 

i don't really care much. yeah, he's my brother. but bitch guidance counselor was right (yeah, i hate to admit it, but she was. and it oh so pisses me off. harrumph) - i looked up to him so much that the fact that he's messing up is making me lose all respect for him.

 

dang. he's not using his almost-genius-level IQ to its fullest (or maybe he is??)

and what stupid person would want to quit medschool when you're in fourth year already?! jeeez.. what'll he think of next?!

teach creative writing in u.p my ass.

harrumph. i hate seeing him waste his life. owell.

 

 

rant. rant. rant. arghhhh...

 

wait lang, ano nanaman tong ginagawa ko? i'm supposed to be reading Eco and Socio! daaanng....

 

sana makita ko ulit crush ko this monday. wahehe..

 

gusto ko ng....
POSTED AT 09:45 AM

budzter

 

perfect!

macho na hinde gwapo na kalbo na mas matangkad sakin at magaling magsalita na marunong sumayaw at marunong mag basketball pati kumanta na makakasundo ko.. (whoa., dinescribe ko lang si ano ah... except for the last part, kasi hinde pa ako sure dun..... wahahaha... harumph.)

 

owel...

ho hummph.
POSTED AT 04:42 PM

budzter

para kay ***s...

 

Baby, baby, baby
From the day I saw you
I really really want to catch your eye
There's something special 'bout you
I must really like you
Cause not a lotta guys are worth my time
Ooo baby, baby, baby
It's gettin kind of crazy
Cause you are takin over my mind
And it feels like oooooo
But you don't know my name
And I swear it feels like ooooo ooooo ooooo ooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)

Oh baby baby baby
I see us on our first date
You're doin everything that makes me smile
And when we had our first kiss
It happened on a Thursday
Ooooo it set my soul on fire
Ooo baby baby baby
I can't wait for the first time
My imagination's runnin wild
It feels like ooooo
You don't know my name
And I swear it baby, it feels like oooo ooooo ooooo ooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)

"I'm sayin, he don't even know what he's doin' to me
Got me feelin' all crazy inside
I'm feelin like"
Owww! Ooooo Oooooo
Doin more than I've ever done for anyone's attention
Take notice of what's in front of you
Cause did I mention you're 'bout to miss a good thing
And you'll never know how good it feels to have all of my affection
And you'll never get a chance to experience my lovin'
Cause my lovin' feels like ooooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know
And I swear it feels like oooo ooooo ooooo ooooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
Ohhh

Will you ever know it, no no no no no
Will you ever know it?
"I'm gonna have to just go ahead and call this boy.
Hello? Can I speak to --- to Michael?
Oh hey, how you doin?
Uh, I feel kinda silly doin' this,
But um, this is the waitress from the coffee house on 39th and Lennox
You know, the one with the braids?
Yeah, well I see you on Wednesdays all the time
You come in every Wednesday on your lunch break, I think
And you always order the special, with the hot chocolate
And my manager be tripping and stuff
Talking bout we gotta use water
But I always use some milk and cream for you
Cause I think you're kinda sweet.
Anyway you always got on some fly blue suit
'n your cufflinks are shining all bright
So, whatchu do? Oh, word? Yeah, that's interesting
Look man, I mean I don't wanna waste your time but
I know girls don't usually do this,
But I was wondering if maybe we could get together
Outside the restaurant one day
Cause I do look a lot different outside my work clothes
I mean we could just go across the street to the park right here
Wait, hold up, my cell phone's breakin up, hold up
Can you hear me now? Yeah
So, what day did you say?
Oh yeah, Thursday's perfect, man:."
And it feels like oooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
Baby Baby I swear it's like oooooo
You don't know my name, no no no
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
And it feels like oooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know)
And I swear on my mother and father it feels like
Oooo ooo oooo ooo ooo ooo
Oooo ooo oooo ooo ooo ooo
Oooo ooo oooo ooo ooo ooo
You don't know my name
(round and round and round we go, will you ever know?)

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wala. naalala ko lang yung song. tamang tama talaga... mmp. wahehehe